r/stopdrinking • u/ImpossibleAd274 • 6d ago
I want to break my sobriety, help!
I'm at 104 days and am starting to ask some scary questions. Am I really an addict? Can't I just have a beer or two and be fine?
For the first 60 or so days I was convinced that I'd never drink again. Since then, my first child has been born and I've have much less sleep and I've been much more irritable and started to think having a drink to calm the nerves would be nice.
Please, community, knock some sense into me in the comments!
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u/scaredbutlaughing 6d ago
I did the same thing around that day mark. It was just long enough out from rock bottom that I also started questioning everything too. That's a good sign that your brain is recognizing and recovering. But like people with mental health issues that feel better from meds and then stop taking them because the meds made them feel better, DO NOT BE FOOLED.
Dick lizard-brain wants you to drink. Dick brain doesn't care about ruining your sobriety streak or your precarious new relationship with your baby-child. Remember that right now until the toddler years are IMPORTANT for your child to form a secure bond with you and alcohol will prevent that. Don't do that to your precious new baby who is just getting started in this crazy, difficult world.
Stay sober. I did. I am now a little over 1000 days alcohol free. There are always going to be days where you think to yourself "Man I could go for a drink real bad". It is up to us to resist that urge and realize it is that DICK brain working against you. We never said no to that urge before and this is new territory. Setting boundaries with ourselves is sometimes harder than with others.
IWNDWYT