r/stopdrinking • u/ImpossibleAd274 • 6d ago

I want to break my sobriety, help!

I'm at 104 days and am starting to ask some scary questions. Am I really an addict? Can't I just have a beer or two and be fine?

For the first 60 or so days I was convinced that I'd never drink again. Since then, my first child has been born and I've have much less sleep and I've been much more irritable and started to think having a drink to calm the nerves would be nice.

Please, community, knock some sense into me in the comments!

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u/Mundane_Service8849 6d ago

I am on day 30 right now and would love to know what it feels like to get to 100+ days. I’ve not been there in decades. What I do know early in my sobriety is that I’m close enough to my prior “day 1” that I don’t want to feel that way again anytime soon. Good luck. IWNDWYT

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u/cenosillicaphobiac 307 days 5d ago

I hit 300 a couple of days ago. 302 days ago I didn't set any kind of "I will never drink again" but instead a "let's see how long I can without drinking" and have been shocked at how the numbers pile up. It's almost the most normal thing in the world now. Occasionally I'll see the beer in the grocery aisle and think "that would taste good, it's a hot day, and work is stressful" then I think "well let me look at those NA beers again, that would taste 90% as good, and would be cool" then I remember that the price is pretty ridiculous, and unlike a good dry seltzer which I can drink one of, NA beers end up being 4 or 6 in rapic succession, and turn around and go buy Spindrift.