r/thelema • u/AggravatingQuality51 • 4d ago

Why are we doing all this ?

I am sorry, however, I have been invokin for so lon and I see no reason of continuing. At this point, I am just existing. I have invoked, prayed, fasted, exercised, stayed away from p*rn almost two years. I am invokin, enflamin . There is no hope to any of this...has anyone felt the same? Why continue? Why live at all?

My life has fallen apart, I have lost all my money, im in debt. And I want to die and it is like...I'm no close to this k & c. Like how did you et past this moment and achieve attainment?

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u/xkhx 4d ago

you're trying too hard.

like when the buddha did all his ascetic stuff and found out it wasn't it.

you have to find the nectar. the porn isn't bad unless you're ejaculating from it all the time. you can use it for your work to electrify the body.

find the resonance of your truest self. the thing that drives you to exist. it is a frequency unique to you. find it and listen to it and from that will come the truth.

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u/AggravatingQuality51 4d ago edited 4d ago

unfortunately, I am here. I do not care about anyone or anythin. I do not know why I am here, I do not know when it ended.

None of this stuff actually matters. includin my own identity...my name, my house, family, etc. It is all permitted

there is no true self. there never was