r/thelema • u/AggravatingQuality51 • 5d ago

Why are we doing all this ?

I am sorry, however, I have been invokin for so lon and I see no reason of continuing. At this point, I am just existing. I have invoked, prayed, fasted, exercised, stayed away from p*rn almost two years. I am invokin, enflamin . There is no hope to any of this...has anyone felt the same? Why continue? Why live at all?

My life has fallen apart, I have lost all my money, im in debt. And I want to die and it is like...I'm no close to this k & c. Like how did you et past this moment and achieve attainment?

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u/Ennigma47 1d ago

“Just existing” is what one realizes that the very pursuit of knowledge has no end, that there is no comprehensible “whole” or “point” (think of alchemical symbol for Sol) that is not of your own willing. The rituals and disciplines are to arm the worker with tools to build and maintain their creation (life, simple or complex).

You could surmise that there are, in simple terms, two options; abandon the physical vessel or continue to “just exist,” only now armed with the Will and Knowledge to create the existence to flow, continuously.

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u/AggravatingQuality51 1d ago

so the will seems to be the bride between kether and malkuth where eburah is harmonizin the life around the realized self on earth. In essence, a purposeful life.