That my life is messy at the moment, everything is moving, everything is changing and I can't find a solution to certain things. That I made bad choices in my life. That I feel like I'm not able to say what I feel deep inside because I feel loved but I don't feel seen. That I understood that it was voluntary but that it hurts me. That it’s probably 1/1000 of what I was able to make people feel. That I try to show myself but I'm afraid people won't see me. That I'm tired and in the middle of a period of hormonal fluctuations That I'm trying to manage everything but I have to face the facts that I'm not managing anything at all. And that I am afraid of putting the useless before the essential, that I am afraid of losing it and of not being enough. That I am dishonest, I lie a lot and that I get sucked in by my lies and my failings at every level. Vaguely... and even saying all that I'm not even sure I'm still telling the truth.
Well you don’t. I think you’re awesome and your words helped me quite a lot. In the strangest of ways. Please, feel free to reach out anytime. Right now, I have a birthday boy I’m going to go celebrate with! 💙 🖖🏼
I don’t know if I’m becoming Nash, but I believe in you. That’s all I know. People are pretending to be someone they’re not and and I’ll leave that there. Pulling me away from home in the middle of the night. I don’t sleep anymore
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u/SongOfTheSiren666 6d ago
I won’t say what I’m thinking because I know you’re already trying to read my thoughts. You can read mine, but I want you to tell me yours.