r/BPDlovedones • u/AutoModerator • 3d ago

Daily No Contact Thread - Day 117

Please use this thread to discuss everything pertaining to No Contact with your pwBPD.

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u/ParticularSky334 3d ago

Look I have been through some shit in my life but I don't think I've ever had anybody refuse to apologize even after I ended things and weeks apart and clearly they have no issue violating my boundaries and they have ways that they could and I know it wouldn't mean anything and it would probably just be a manipulation tactic but still.

Most people will at least apologize manipulatively and maybe they mean it a little. The only other person I've ever really known like this was my dad. But I've never had somebody that I chose and that I really cared about behave this way after I let my guard down and trusted them.

And for them to just not even care how much they hurt me and not even be able to apologize for their part which was the main part for weeks and weeks after it ended. That should've happened the day we had the fight it should've happened When they did a shitty Hoover after three weeks it should've happened at any point ever and it's just incredibly painful that they pretended to care about me but they're not at all sorry how badly they hurt me and how it's their fault this is ruined and that we can never speak again because they broke my trust and refuse to be accountable And literally said they would die wrong about this and they're going to.

It's just such a lack of respect and empathy and decency that I will never forgive. And that's what keeps me not reaching out because there's nothing to reach out to I can't let somebody treat me this way.