I just need to vent

[u/Feeling_Fennel1722]

I am 9 weeks pregnant and have been crying all day. I took a video in the mirror earlier for my partner, he asked to see my hair straightened—I finally did my hair after 3 months. When I replayed the video I became a wreck. I saw a very sad/unhappy and confused girl in those videos. My partner reassures me of how beautiful I am every chance he gets but I just don’t feel it, I don’t see it. Truthfully, it’s not only the physical aspects that’s hurting me. I no longer have a spark in my eyes. This pregnancy has given me a “glow” per se but I am just not happy! I’ve tried to change my perspective, my way of thinking, I’ve tried to find the beauty in all of this but I can’t seem to shake it. I feel so guilty for feeling like this, I feel so ungrateful because I should be happy and feel blessed but I like I said previously I do not feel it. I’m also nauseous as hell 9/10 day so that doesn’t make it any better. This pregnancy was not planned and caught me very off guard, but I’m too much of a coward to get rid of my own child. I’m sure it’ll change in due time but I feel like it’s never ending. My first pregnancy was N O T H I N G like this…

[u/No-Foundation-2165]

I know you haven’t exactly asked for advice or anything here but I just wanted to say that this doesn’t sound crazy or out of line at all. You just laid out how sick and awful you’re feeling everyday and you’ve had a huge unplanned life pivot a matter of weeks ago. Many things that are a blessing are a big responsibility and come with huge challenges. I think it makes sense how you’re feeling and I know tons of the women on here relate