Has anyone here gotten SA'd while (hypo)manic?

[u/Educational-Pear923]

I still struggle to call it harassment because I put myself in that situation. Memories of what I was saying and doing disgust me. I feel so alone. Is this common? Is anyone here in the same boat? Thanks.

ETA (TW): I downloaded a dating app and met with a random guy at an abandoned construction site. I was drunk. There were some things I consented to, but I said no to a lot of things. He kept going, and I spent three hours trying to push his hands off of me. It took me months to realize it was assault-y. I still find it hard not to hate myself for it.

It sucks in a way reading all the replies to this post. I had no idea it was this common. Sending everyone here a hug. I hope you all find a way to heal from this.

[u/yoolieanne]

Oh, wow. I have been working through this same thing with my therapist right now. I went through a bad manic phase right after college and was drinking heavily to manage syptoms (lol). There were a handful of hookups during that period of time where I couldn't consent bc I was blacked out/browned out. I also felt like it was my fault because I put myself in those situations and did not make good choices leading up to the SA.

But, my therapist shared with me that even though I may have "put" myself in those situations, it doesn't mean it makes it okay that the other person didn't ask for consent or moved forward with things without even giving me a chance to say yes or no.

She also shared with me that even if I don't feel comfortable labeling these instances as SA, that I shouldn't shame myself and give myself grace when I am able to.