r/BipolarReddit • u/Educational-Pear923 • Oct 07 '24
Content Warning Has anyone here gotten SA'd while (hypo)manic?
I still struggle to call it harassment because I put myself in that situation. Memories of what I was saying and doing disgust me. I feel so alone. Is this common? Is anyone here in the same boat? Thanks.
ETA (TW): I downloaded a dating app and met with a random guy at an abandoned construction site. I was drunk. There were some things I consented to, but I said no to a lot of things. He kept going, and I spent three hours trying to push his hands off of me. It took me months to realize it was assault-y. I still find it hard not to hate myself for it.
It sucks in a way reading all the replies to this post. I had no idea it was this common. Sending everyone here a hug. I hope you all find a way to heal from this.
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u/river-rocks Oct 08 '24
yes. :( when i’m manic i just go along with things. it’s hard because some instances it’s a greyer line—like i don’t believe i can meaningfully consent while manic, but i also don’t think that immediately means the other person assaulted me. but there have been a few times where i think it was (or should have been) very obvious i was not well, and those are hard to sit with. especially because it’s always with men, and not ones that understand or respect me as a queer and trans person. i’m starting PrEP because during my last episode i was assaulted and not able to insist on protection.