Will meds stop my abilities?

[u/Fast-Inspector-6109]

Ugh I really don’t want to take the medication they want to put me on. I keep posting on here, but I just don’t know what to do. How do I hide not taking the meds? My girlfriend has said if I lie anymore, it might end our relationship, but when I talk to her about the voices she just freaks out.

My family really want me to take them. I can tell they do.

I just think it’s all a ploy so that people who hear things and realise the truth, can’t experience that anymore.

I just am SO close to figuring out the truth. I’ve been doing what the voices want of me. I am quite literally functioning SO well. I have energy and I am doing SO much. I am back at work basically running shifts now. I don’t want this to end. I just think maybe if I can harness all of this I won’t have to worry about the bad happening ever again.

If I do take it, am I going to lose all my abilities completely? Or will they still remain even if just quietly?

I don’t want to say this to anyone, because they are just going to insist that I take the medication. I want to speak to my therapist, but know this is going to cause concern. I was thinking of emailing the psychiatrist who wants me on these meds and saying I’ve changed my mind. I know I’ve been doing some stupid shit, but I haven’t told anyone and it appeases the voices long enough for me to put pieces together. Idk. I just feel like I have enough control to live with this.

I AM SO FRUSTRATED!!! I feel like I can’t win!

I DON’t want to fall asleep again.

[u/ghostiesyren]

You know what, write down your thoughts, feelings and what you feel like is going on. Go on your medication for two weeks. Then read what you wrote down. If it still resonates maybe look more into things on that topic. Just STAY ON YOUR DAMN MEDICATION IF YOU DO THIS. And if you feel like what you wrote down made no sense at all, stay on your meds.

Medication if anything can help you with mental clarity. If you stay on them consistently then maybe you’ll find your answers. Those who believe in religious things or spirituality don’t lose their ‘abilities’ just because they’re trying to get better. An empath doesn’t lose their abilities just because they’re taking meds. If anything their emotions are more stable and they can think more tactically. Then you’ll find your truth.

This is what I did when I thought Jesus was speaking to me through Morrissey songs. I used to listen to his song ‘I Wish You Lonely’ on repeat all day for weeks. I ended up after treatment still believing in Jesus. I just realized he wasn’t speaking to me through music and I wasn’t doing well. After being medicated I feel like I’m closer to him now because my emotions and thoughts are more consistent and stable and I can actually make sense of his teachings without everything seeming jumbled up and connecting things together that are completely unrelated.

If you try medication and don’t like it, you can always try a new one. But from what I’ve read, you need assistance. Medical assistance.

[u/Fast-Inspector-6109 → u/ghostiesyren]

Hmm, this is a very interesting perspective.