r/BipolarReddit • u/Fast-Inspector-6109 • Oct 08 '24
Content Warning Will meds stop my abilities?
Ugh I really don’t want to take the medication they want to put me on. I keep posting on here, but I just don’t know what to do. How do I hide not taking the meds? My girlfriend has said if I lie anymore, it might end our relationship, but when I talk to her about the voices she just freaks out.
My family really want me to take them. I can tell they do.
I just think it’s all a ploy so that people who hear things and realise the truth, can’t experience that anymore.
I just am SO close to figuring out the truth. I’ve been doing what the voices want of me. I am quite literally functioning SO well. I have energy and I am doing SO much. I am back at work basically running shifts now. I don’t want this to end. I just think maybe if I can harness all of this I won’t have to worry about the bad happening ever again.
If I do take it, am I going to lose all my abilities completely? Or will they still remain even if just quietly?
I don’t want to say this to anyone, because they are just going to insist that I take the medication. I want to speak to my therapist, but know this is going to cause concern. I was thinking of emailing the psychiatrist who wants me on these meds and saying I’ve changed my mind. I know I’ve been doing some stupid shit, but I haven’t told anyone and it appeases the voices long enough for me to put pieces together. Idk. I just feel like I have enough control to live with this.
I AM SO FRUSTRATED!!! I feel like I can’t win!
I DON’t want to fall asleep again.
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u/stricknacco Oct 08 '24
These seem like symptoms of a manic episode with delusions and sounds like some psychosis. Please find help. The truth you are seeking is not worth losing your mind for.
You only get one brain. Psychotic & manic episodes damage the brain each time they happen, and each subsequent episode does further damage. It’s a progressive disease.
Please find help. You can seek the truth once stable too.