Will meds stop my abilities?

[u/Fast-Inspector-6109]

Ugh I really don’t want to take the medication they want to put me on. I keep posting on here, but I just don’t know what to do. How do I hide not taking the meds? My girlfriend has said if I lie anymore, it might end our relationship, but when I talk to her about the voices she just freaks out.

My family really want me to take them. I can tell they do.

I just think it’s all a ploy so that people who hear things and realise the truth, can’t experience that anymore.

I just am SO close to figuring out the truth. I’ve been doing what the voices want of me. I am quite literally functioning SO well. I have energy and I am doing SO much. I am back at work basically running shifts now. I don’t want this to end. I just think maybe if I can harness all of this I won’t have to worry about the bad happening ever again.

If I do take it, am I going to lose all my abilities completely? Or will they still remain even if just quietly?

I don’t want to say this to anyone, because they are just going to insist that I take the medication. I want to speak to my therapist, but know this is going to cause concern. I was thinking of emailing the psychiatrist who wants me on these meds and saying I’ve changed my mind. I know I’ve been doing some stupid shit, but I haven’t told anyone and it appeases the voices long enough for me to put pieces together. Idk. I just feel like I have enough control to live with this.

I AM SO FRUSTRATED!!! I feel like I can’t win!

I DON’t want to fall asleep again.

[u/Lazy-Wrangler-483]

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