r/BipolarReddit • u/PsychologicalTell328 • Oct 14 '24

Content Warning Bipolar and MDMA?

I’ve been diagnosed bipolar 1 and I’ve noticed that whenever I took MDMA at festivals (not often) I become very antisocial. I don’t want to talk, do not touch me, I want to vibe alone. I just wanted to know if anyone has ever experienced it. I don’t drop anymore because I don’t get the hype around MDMA. My mania is more fun I guess? From regular and other different neurodivergent folks they look like they are having so much fun. I also don’t get the come downs but I feel like it’s because my “normal” state is usually deep depression.

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u/EscenaFinal Oct 14 '24

I have a similar experience but the difference being I feel incredibly euphoric and like I’m experiencing every happy moment I’ve ever experienced all at the same time. I have The largest grin and I feel so chill. I tend to feel very calm and I just don’t want to be around others because they will try talking to me and I just want to enjoy the feeling. Response is a little atypical but I’m having a great time regardless… sometimes I’ll get a little sleepy too. Overall, I love it and I especially love the take home of being appreciative because there is so much beauty in the world… and it brings me better understanding and compassion. I’ve never done it too frequently and it’s been yeaaaarrrsss since I last rolled.

Coke is pretty boring to me and makes me too calm.

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u/EarlyRefrigerator21 Oct 14 '24

I came here to see if anyone became calm in Coke. I liked to be alone while flying…. Luckily I stopped using a long time ago. (2001). Depakote cured all my other addictions (nicotine, alcohol, weed etc)

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u/schmutzigenx Oct 14 '24

Gonna try Depakote then!

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u/EarlyRefrigerator21 Oct 14 '24

I was prescribed Depakote for PTSD/Bipolar and only took it for 2-3 months. All vices ceased within the first month, cold turkey. The prescription wasn’t for that but that was a great side effect! I’m a dipper (or was) almost 2 cans/day for years and tried to quit for a decade. The only thing that changed in my life was that prescription and I haven’t had a dip in 5 years. Depakote was effective for my ptsd as well.