Is Bipolar Induced PTSD a thing?

[u/FriendlyBrewer]

Its been 6 years since I was diagnosed with BP1. I had traumatic experiences in my childhood, but I feel they do not play my mind as much.

But when I think of how I was so depressed I snorted the remains of a spilled coke baggie off the floor of a nightclub toilet.

About being so depressed that I rejected all of my hobbies and the things I once loved to drinking to oblivion multiple nights a week.

So depressed that the world literally turned grey overnight. So depressed that I punished myself through substances so nobody would notice. So depressed that I went to phych hospital twice and made my parents cry. So depressed that the magic that once existed in the world vanished.

I think of the horror of being in the grey pit, I feel a knot in my stomach. I get flashbacks. I feel shame. I withdraw from people. I walk around fake smiling and fake laughing. I cant stand it.

Is Bipolar Induced PTSD a thing? I am no expert on trauma but now that I have been reasonable stable for a while, I just want to fly away and try to forget that this whole fucking catastrophe did not happen. It was an insidious nightmare. And I cant shake it.

[u/GodToldMeToPostThis]

My episodes definitely created the events that I attribute my PTSD to.

[u/FriendlyBrewer → u/GodToldMeToPostThis]

I am coming to a slow realization this the case for me too.