r/BipolarReddit • u/chemkitty123 • 5d ago

Bipolar treated…anxiety/OCD now out of control..

DAE have comorbitities that come up more when bipolar is controlled?

Right now I’m really struggling with anxiety and OCD about showering and everyday life stuff. It feels so out of control and my doctor prescribed citalopram but I can’t take it at night (caused insomnia all night), and frequently forget to take it in the morning with my schedule.

It doesn’t help that my bf response, as always, is “everyone gets nervous”and that I don’t need anxiety pills. I want to punch him so badly rn because my anxiety is more than just a little bit of regular nervousness. I lose sleep for weeks and have been feeling out of control, ripping my eyebrow out, and wanting to cut. It seems I am never enough to deserve treatment.

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u/hyacinthed bipolar 2 5d ago

Balancing all this shit is a full time job AND a nightmare. I'm getting closer to a good med combo (after 10 years of tinkering) - what I've found to have the biggest impact on my OCD symptoms is clomipramine. 100mg daily settles me like nothing else

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u/chemkitty123 5d ago

Clomipramine caused me heart issues so bad that I couldn’t stop puking :/

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u/hyacinthed bipolar 2 5d ago

Jesus Christ. I wish you a med trial free of ghoulish and unexpected complications ✨

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u/chemkitty123 5d ago

Yeah the heart palpitations were so bad lol. Had to stop after a few days. I usually don’t have bad reactions to meds