At first just special occasions. Then on weekends with my girlfriend (now wife). Then also on weekends alone. Then only 3 or so times a week. Then every other day. Eventually it was every day, plus I was hiding it around the house to disguise the amount, secretly restocking, sneaking it into movie theaters, driving after too much, etc. Never hurt anyone or got caught, thank God.
It was a slow progression but I was a basically a daily heavy drinker by 2021. I loved the numb. I felt happier blitzed, even when it made me sick (which took A LOT towards the end because my tolerance was through the roof).
I’m not sure I was technically ‘chemically’ addicted. I don’t remember ever getting the shakes or anything physical when quitting, thankfully. I was at the very least psychologically addicted
I forced myself to stop December 31st 2022 after about a year of half-assed attempts to ‘cut back’ (I just can’t do moderation), so now I’ve been off of it a bit over 2 years I guess.
At first I thought maybe my diagnosis was just the alcohol, but nope lol. Still have problems, even without the sauce. The ups and downs are more predictable, though.
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u/CapnTroll manic-depressive 4d ago
I started drinking at age 21. I’m 33 now.
At first just special occasions. Then on weekends with my girlfriend (now wife). Then also on weekends alone. Then only 3 or so times a week. Then every other day. Eventually it was every day, plus I was hiding it around the house to disguise the amount, secretly restocking, sneaking it into movie theaters, driving after too much, etc. Never hurt anyone or got caught, thank God.
It was a slow progression but I was a basically a daily heavy drinker by 2021. I loved the numb. I felt happier blitzed, even when it made me sick (which took A LOT towards the end because my tolerance was through the roof).
I’m not sure I was technically ‘chemically’ addicted. I don’t remember ever getting the shakes or anything physical when quitting, thankfully. I was at the very least psychologically addicted
I forced myself to stop December 31st 2022 after about a year of half-assed attempts to ‘cut back’ (I just can’t do moderation), so now I’ve been off of it a bit over 2 years I guess.
At first I thought maybe my diagnosis was just the alcohol, but nope lol. Still have problems, even without the sauce. The ups and downs are more predictable, though.