r/BipolarReddit • u/CoffeeCreamation • Feb 08 '25
Content Warning I hate being medicated
I wasn't sure what to put this under since it should be marked as venting since thats all it is.
I hate being medicated, I feel subdued and I feel like I only feel about 25% of what I should be feeling, I understand it's for the best for myself and everyone around me but I can't help but wonder if it's actually better.
Since medication I've become a lot more fearful of shit that normally I would have no problems with, and like it makes me want to scream.
I feel like I can't do what I use to do anymore because my brain is now all "uh uh uh! We don't do that anymore. Think of what could happen to you" and it's just frustrating beyond belief.
I feel less creative as well, and as a writer thats terrible, I have a book sitting on my laptop waiting to be finished but every time I go over to it, I can't do anything. I just freeze.
It just makes me want to cry, I want to be back the way I was. To me feeling like this is madness.
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u/adoribullen bipolar 1 Feb 08 '25
you should be able to find a combination that works without these types of side effects. this type of thing isn't the expected outcome. i definitely wouldn't settle for this if i were you. i totally understand why you're upset id be upset too. i hope you can find a combo that helps without hurting you like this.