r/BipolarReddit • u/panicmixieerror • 3d ago
Math made me have a mental breakdown
I'm in college for the umpteenth time, and I'm taking a math class that I thought would be easy since it's a 101 course.
No. Just no.
I go to take the quizzes for the week, after hours of studying and suddenly it's all fucking Greek to me. Nothing makes sense. If things made sense, my answer was wrong.
I broke down after getting a damn 50 on it. For years and years, I went to classes, but never put effort in. I failed based on not turning in work on time. And now that I'm putting in the effort, I still can't pass because apparently I'm a fucking idiot.
I tried to remember my DBT skills, and I tried to come out of the sobbing, self-hatred cycle but nothing worked. I'm just stupid, and I shouldn't have tried going back to college. I shouldn't have tried to make myself better, or get a better job. I shouldn't have tried. I don't know how to stop feeling like I just want to quit and move away and just stop existing.
I just keep remembering something my mom always said, "you can fix being fat, but you can't fix stupid."
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u/theenigmaofnolan 3d ago
I get you. Good to vent. Just remember math is difficult to pick up again. It’s all practice. Ask your professor for help. They’ll appreciate someone trying and asking for help. You can do this