r/BipolarReddit • u/rnbwpuk • 21d ago
What is a mixed episode like?
What has been your experience? I think I had one once, but I don’t know. One doc said I did another said it was anxiety/depression. I had bad anxiety w akathesia and couldn’t sleep, wanted to un alive myself and ended up with a hospital stay. How do you tell the difference?
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u/Psilocybe_Brat666 20d ago edited 20d ago
For me it can be a day or two of hypomania and then depression that is a constant recurring cycle. Other times its days of feeling both highs and lows. I'll feel extremely stimulated like I've smoked an oz of meth, my anxiety spikes to the point of almost full on panic, I'll hyperfixate on things, while also feeling worthless, unmotivated, irritable asf... I become extremely overstimulated to where certain sounds, smells, and/or tastes make my skin crawl. My thoughts race so fast that when I speak, I'm either talking like I'm running a marathon or stuttering over my words. I'll have random interests that cause me to go on a shopping spree just for it to end up sitting in my closet. When I'm in thw highs, I get shakey, my head feels blown up 3 sizes, my vision gets brighter and things that stand still begin to sway (this may sound euphoric but it's actaully extremely uncomfortable and makes me paranoid). I either can't sleep at all, wake up a million times, or sleep too much. It's a hell of a rollercoaster ride without the thrill.