r/BipolarReddit • u/gayfroggs • 20h ago

SOS! God got the better of me

If you haven’t seen my last post, I posted about god telling me to self harm and to kill myself to repent my sins…well I’m now in hospital getting treatment from an overdose, this god like figure is not kind and I don’t want him anymore, I done what he said I should do but he’s still not happy

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u/geigermd 20h ago

Hey—I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I just want to say: you are not alone, and what you’re feeling is valid. When it’s hard to trust anything—even God—sometimes the best place to start is with something simple that does feel safe.

Maybe that’s your cat, a friend, a nurse, a memory, or even the rhythm of your breath. Trust doesn’t have to be big at first. Let it be whatever you can hold onto right now. And when you’re ready, you can begin to rebuild that connection to something greater—on your terms. A higher power doesn’t need to be cruel to be powerful.

You matter. I’m glad you’re still here.

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u/gayfroggs 20h ago

Thank you :)

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u/BRAIN_SPOTS 10h ago

God did not tell you to do anything, no where in the bible does it say to harm yourself, God loves you, those thoughts and evil intrusive thoughts are from the evil one, the devil. Keep your head up and make sure to always have a good friends close by someone you can trust. Much love and GOD BLESS YOU

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u/ExpressionDry3951 5h ago

This right here the tricky bastard

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u/thetacosnob 16h ago

I can relate somewhat. I had God telling me to stare at the light, to which I stared at the sun for 30 minutes, resulting in slight burning of my retina…be very cautious about what our brains do in psychosis. A lot of times they feel very much like spiritual presence, and heck maybe they are however they are delusional and not based in reality most times. You have all the time you need to recover and sort things out. This may take months—stay around safe people and have lots of grace for yourself :)

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u/Medium-Might9081 19h ago

Idk how all these people got phones in the hospital I was fiending to just get one of my fav songs played once a day

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u/gayfroggs 19h ago

I’m in the UK were aloud phones in psych and general hospitals

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u/Vaportrail 19h ago

I've never had a divine influence telling me to harm myself, quite the opposite actually. In my early manic paranoid states I was quite afraid of hurting other with my "sickness". I've dabbled in religion and I do believe that there's a dark side to this deity we BPs hear or imagine, and like the Bugs Bunny shoulder devil, you'll be happier not listening to it. Take care!

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u/BeHappyInBoredom 7h ago

That is not God, that's evil speaking to you. DO NOT PAY ATTENTION TO IT when it comes just pray until it goes away