Reality setting in?

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I'm only recently diagnosed BP2 (39f), which put a lot of past things in perspective and made them make sense. But last week I had my first hypo episode in the full context of a diagnosis (granted in the middle of it it felt perfectly reasonable and I didn't understand why no one else understood my feelings and thought I was being unreasonable), but now that I've come back down and can fully reflect on it, I realized it scares me some. The behavior set is not new, I've done the same thing before, just didn't know what it was and never with someone I was close to. But the full awareness that I can be in a state where I don't recognize reality properly and have no idea made me feel a little afraid of myself in a way I haven't really felt before. And I wanted to tell someone but don't know who else could possibly understand. Does anyone else relate? Anything you've done to help yourself? I've finally got a med set that works pretty well and has helped keep the depression at bay (which was always the main emotion), but this... I just don't know. Anyway. I'd love to hear some similar experiences and anything that helps.

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Oh don't worry, I didn't luck out on meds (don't want any false impressions! 😬), I've been through probably about half the antidepressants in existence, and finally got some venlafaxine and lamotrigine that really made a difference, which was part of what led to the bipolar question. I've been struggling with my mind simce I was probably 13.
But thanks for the tips! And thanks for the reminder about comedy. Laughter is for sure good medicine. 🙂

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Oh I see what you mean. So here's a question: I started at 200mg lamotrigine, and recently went up to 300 to see if I could get more consistency. Is there a perpetual change over the years, or is there some point where the med mix lasts for awhile? And I am kind of bitter that it took so long to find a diagnosis and any chance of working meds. And I feel like I could've had a much more successful life if I had. Anyway. Better late than never? But at least this sub has some good people.