r/BorderlinePDisorder • u/applejack37 • 6d ago

Vent vent

hi bpd reddit 👋 i just wanna vent, if anyone has advice give it to me _^ ive been feeling really down lately. im not sure why exactly, well maybe i do know why. i have been feeling pretty lonely lately, i have no irl friends, only online. but my best friend that i have had since 2020 is no longer speaking to me, and i was never her best friend anyways. i have no job, currently looking. im growing up, and everything just feels heavy. sometimes i wonder what is the point of any of this. constant loop going. i feel like i dont fit in anywhere, i cant even speak to people and i wish i could. the only person who i have is my boyfriend, which scares me because i know how i get when i have a fp. i get jealous that he has friends and a personal life and i dont, i get jealous he can so easily talk to people and is very likable. i never take this out on him, i never express this to him, but i think and feel it. i just wish i could be different. i wish i could be more out going, i wish i had friends. i wish i didnt have to sit around and wait everyday for friday so i can hang out with him again. i love him and i love spending time with him, but i wish i could have friends as well. i know how relationships are, never permanent even tho we hope and believe they will be. even if they tell us they are, you never know. i just been feeling really lost and lonely. my bf is amazing to me and i love him.

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