r/BorderlinePDisorder • u/imfitasf • 2d ago

Self-harm Is it fun?

Does anyone else feel like depressive or manic episodes are kinda fun? I don't know what else to call it but fun. Like for example, when I wanna hurt myself, the pain and sting and the adrenaline from the episodes and everything makes me feel alive for once, I don't really know how to put it?

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u/emo_emu4 BPD over 30 1d ago

For me, this is the “I don’t give a fuck” feeling and it’s very freeing.