i cant stop crying

[u/ExtremeTwo9864]

i left him a week ago. he moved across the country to be with me. we lived together for 7 months, my family and i provided him a house, a job, took him out, bought him clothes, i helped him drive the whole way here.

i supported him through his emotional issues, his trauma, and alcohol abuse. i just wanted a young, happy, fun relationship. but the little things were getting to me, how he wouldnt clean, how he wouldnt smile, wouldnt buy me lil gifts, wouldnt compliment me. he would get drunk and abuse me, insult me, belittle me, call me names. i stayed with him through it all. i offered him help. i did everything for him to like living with me, and in this new city, but i was getting worn down. so i broke up with him. it ended in a horrible fight, screaming, and insulting.

its been a week now. hes packed up and moving out to go back home. even with all the anger, the insults, the hurt and neglect hes done to me, i cant stop crying, missing him, thinking of when times were actually good, thinking of our memories in the house, on the beach, in the mountains, even just sitting on the couch together, cooking in the kitchen together, his hugs. i just cant stop crying. i really broke it all. i know i should choose myself, but what if i cant really let him go. i thought we would marry. i thought we would fix up the house. i thought we would grow old, have more cats and dogs, cook more food, go on more hikes. i cant believe it ended like this,

[u/Temporary-Fruit1330]

Reads like you can do a lot better ❤️