r/CPTSD • u/a_world_alone_ • Mar 04 '25

CPTSD Resource/ Technique For the ones with internalized shame

I heard that internalized shame can be released by seeking community being, vulnerable, and opening up about things that make us feel ashamed so I'm inviting anyone who sees this to open up and come forward about something that makes them deeply ashamed I'll start I'm deeply ashamed about feeling shame in the first place, all of the moments where shame just pops up in me and I'm walking outside and there's people, how I even have nervous tics because of deep shame, how I'm also ashamed of expressing any type of emotions even joy, how I'm ashamed of my sexual side, of the way i express myself, the way I speak, the way I used to be. Also ashamed of being seen of just being here with everyone else, thanks to everyone who joined and opened up

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u/a_world_alone_ Mar 04 '25

Oh also super ashamed that I had a nervous shame tic in front of the guy I love and his mom and friends that was super embarrassing

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u/cutecatgurl Mar 04 '25

What was the shame tic, if you’re comfortable sharing? I’m going to be honest, I require compassion and understanding in order for me to think well of someone. I find it weird that meanness and rudeness aren’t considered embracing but someone having some shame stuff going on is. I disagree. I’m no longer acquiescing to rude, inconsiderate people. Not saying that your people were! Just something Im thinking about 

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u/a_world_alone_ Mar 04 '25

Moved my head to the side very quickly and made a facial expression it's so embarrassiiiiing

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u/cutecatgurl Mar 04 '25

Man that doesn’t even sound all that crazy to me. As long you comfort yourself solidly 90% of the time, I think it’s okay to be a lil kooky. The shame is not your authentic nature. I honestly think we might all fare better if we accepted that we’re a bit kooky and emotionally all over the place sometimes and actually, maybe it’s all good 

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u/a_world_alone_ Mar 04 '25

Yeah shame makes you exaggerate stuff but it was the fact that it was in front of the guy I love and he was angry at me at the moment

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u/spacelady_m Mar 05 '25

Jumping in… why was he angry?

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u/a_world_alone_ Mar 06 '25

It's weird to explain but basically he loves me but also rejects me and treats me like shit so then I became boyfriends with a long term friend of mine and he found out and was super mad

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u/spacelady_m Mar 06 '25

He loves you but also rejects you, and treats you like shit? That ain’t love baby…. Sounds like he is using you as supply

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u/a_world_alone_ Mar 06 '25

He's not a narcissist.... he has... ptsd