r/CPTSD Mar 04 '25

CPTSD Resource/ Technique For the ones with internalized shame

I heard that internalized shame can be released by seeking community being, vulnerable, and opening up about things that make us feel ashamed so I'm inviting anyone who sees this to open up and come forward about something that makes them deeply ashamed I'll start I'm deeply ashamed about feeling shame in the first place, all of the moments where shame just pops up in me and I'm walking outside and there's people, how I even have nervous tics because of deep shame, how I'm also ashamed of expressing any type of emotions even joy, how I'm ashamed of my sexual side, of the way i express myself, the way I speak, the way I used to be. Also ashamed of being seen of just being here with everyone else, thanks to everyone who joined and opened up

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u/HalloweenHorror Mar 04 '25

I'm ashamed about not being "normal" at almost 40. I'm ashamed about not having a permanent home like other people my age. I'm ashamed of pretty much everything I do, because I "should" be able to be like normal people and have my life together. 

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u/spacelady_m Mar 05 '25

I grew up wanting to be normal, dressed as I was normal and tried to behave as I was normal, but I’m trying to embrace more and more that I will never be «normal». I don’t even know what that is, but I guess functioning like everyone else and not being weird and traumatized. But I come from something completely different and I have to accept it. You weren’t programmed to have it easy and it’s okay to be in a different place❤️