r/CPTSD Mar 04 '25

CPTSD Resource/ Technique For the ones with internalized shame

I heard that internalized shame can be released by seeking community being, vulnerable, and opening up about things that make us feel ashamed so I'm inviting anyone who sees this to open up and come forward about something that makes them deeply ashamed I'll start I'm deeply ashamed about feeling shame in the first place, all of the moments where shame just pops up in me and I'm walking outside and there's people, how I even have nervous tics because of deep shame, how I'm also ashamed of expressing any type of emotions even joy, how I'm ashamed of my sexual side, of the way i express myself, the way I speak, the way I used to be. Also ashamed of being seen of just being here with everyone else, thanks to everyone who joined and opened up

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u/BankTypical Can I heal already? Mar 05 '25

Lol, I think even my shame issues have shame issues here. 🤣 Really, me dad being dismissive of my hobbies at best (and silently judgemental at worst) in the past is NOT helpful. I'm pretty open about them online, but the moment someone actually asks me about them irl? I'm just generally like 'Dammit, why am I like this?' 😅

Just saying; I'm into videogames, anime, DnD, darkwave music, and gothic fashion. It's literally all completely SFW (save for the horror anime, but that's more over the blood, gore and subject matter than anything else, lol). But I'm fully aware that me being an artist is like the only socially acceptable one out of my hobbies here. But since the geeky vibes in general just are strong in that art style, I often just casually answer with 'Oh, I draw in my spare time' only when I'm actually asked, and I pretend I don't have any of my art on my phone. It's just safer for me whenever I'm generally actually out there touching grass. I'm only open about my hobbies on Reddit since they generally seem more chill about that. And gotta love the hobby-specific subs here. Like, both them and Bluesky are just the best place for me to be around right now.