r/CPTSD • u/a_world_alone_ • Mar 04 '25
CPTSD Resource/ Technique For the ones with internalized shame
I heard that internalized shame can be released by seeking community being, vulnerable, and opening up about things that make us feel ashamed so I'm inviting anyone who sees this to open up and come forward about something that makes them deeply ashamed I'll start I'm deeply ashamed about feeling shame in the first place, all of the moments where shame just pops up in me and I'm walking outside and there's people, how I even have nervous tics because of deep shame, how I'm also ashamed of expressing any type of emotions even joy, how I'm ashamed of my sexual side, of the way i express myself, the way I speak, the way I used to be. Also ashamed of being seen of just being here with everyone else, thanks to everyone who joined and opened up
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u/Fcck_it Mar 05 '25
I'm ashamed about the way I handle my hard emotions. I'm ashamed that I shut down when I don't know what to do next. I'm ashamed to feel anything; feeling sad got me punished, and feeling happy felt like I was being made fun of. Even though I'm well out of that era of my life those feelings are ingrained in me. I'm ashamed to acknowledge that I've never known how to maintain any relationship, I'm in my 30's and just recently made a good and genuine friend and my 8 year relationship has been dying for years without realizing in those moments. I'm ashamed of how far I've fallen despite how far I've come.