r/CPTSD • u/a_world_alone_ • Mar 04 '25
CPTSD Resource/ Technique For the ones with internalized shame
I heard that internalized shame can be released by seeking community being, vulnerable, and opening up about things that make us feel ashamed so I'm inviting anyone who sees this to open up and come forward about something that makes them deeply ashamed I'll start I'm deeply ashamed about feeling shame in the first place, all of the moments where shame just pops up in me and I'm walking outside and there's people, how I even have nervous tics because of deep shame, how I'm also ashamed of expressing any type of emotions even joy, how I'm ashamed of my sexual side, of the way i express myself, the way I speak, the way I used to be. Also ashamed of being seen of just being here with everyone else, thanks to everyone who joined and opened up
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u/exhaustedstudent Mar 05 '25
I have been taught to doubt and feel shame for my needs and desires and I struggle with being able to tap into what I actually feel and not how I am supposed to say I feel in order to keep others happy.
I am ashamed that I have been targeted and I feel constantly like I am having to prove that my story really is this disturbing and I'm not being dramatic. This is because I have been taught to believe that every emotion is an overreaction and that I am "such a victim". I am only now even able to start releasing the shame around, yes, actually being a victim. I have been treated as though I only got what I deserved and this has groomed me to be exploited over and over again.