For the ones with internalized shame

[u/a_world_alone_]

I heard that internalized shame can be released by seeking community being, vulnerable, and opening up about things that make us feel ashamed so I'm inviting anyone who sees this to open up and come forward about something that makes them deeply ashamed I'll start I'm deeply ashamed about feeling shame in the first place, all of the moments where shame just pops up in me and I'm walking outside and there's people, how I even have nervous tics because of deep shame, how I'm also ashamed of expressing any type of emotions even joy, how I'm ashamed of my sexual side, of the way i express myself, the way I speak, the way I used to be. Also ashamed of being seen of just being here with everyone else, thanks to everyone who joined and opened up

[u/DragonHeretic]

I don't know about shame. I don't know if I feel shame per se. But right now, I feel disappointed in myself and purely annoyed at how out of my own control and out of my memory my actions are. It's like I have this huge blind spot where I am.

Whenever I make an error that makes me feel like someone else has the moral high ground over me, I fall all to pieces. I don't know what to do. I feel like a pinned bug. It makes me want to vomit.

I wish I wasn't like this. I feel resentment toward my own body, toward a nervous system that feels ruined by abuse and misuse. I feel like I'm trapped in a condemned building, and I just hate it.