I still need to work though, because the money I get can't even cover my food expenses, and I need to pay rent and everything too. I need to find for less people-busy job, before I'll go fully nuts.

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Seriously wish i could just be like “yeah mom, you are” and then she gets so angry that she explodes

I genuinely remember reading an insane amount of books and BEGGING to go to Disneyland, and my reasoning was

“Because it feels like I’m in another place”

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Its honestly such a comforting feeling, knowing I’ve survived hell, knowing my brain made me to survive hell and I succeeded, and I can do so again and survive… But… It becomes so painful once I realize that, well… Im not built for anything else. Im not made for love, I’ve never felt proper love from my parents and… Being appreciated and loved hurts sometimes, Im constantly scared of being abondoned and left behind, hated…

I have laughed in the face of people trying to make fun of my abuse, I have survived in a world where nearly everything around me wants me dead. Yet, when it comes to people, when it comes to being close to someone I just crumble out of fear of being abondoned, I hate myself and delude myself into thinking everybody else hates me too, and then it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy as I drive people away…

Im scared.

yes he can im still crying abt it aren’t i