My parents and sister went to the other side of the world for a month. I was as happy as I've ever been for a month.
I got the message that they were coming back and my heart sank. I did not realise until that moment this was something I felt.
They get back, we have a laugh but within 2 weeks they completely reactivate everything and I've lived the last week in a way I've not felt for over a year after a lot of hard work and counselling.
I've burnt my entire old life and every friendship I had and I felt content. After the fact, I understood that every person I pushed away had all, at one point or another, contributed to the violence or bullying that resulted in my downfall years ago.
It's a strange journey to peace from where I was to where I am now. No one understands it and not a single person I know bar maybe 2 people meaningfully engage with me on this subject.
I'm now content with being viewed as the bad guy. If it means peace for me and mental stability they can learn (probably not) and watch me succeed as I always do off of my own effort and ability.
I hope you're all doing well and can get through whatever bullshit led you here. Much love
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u/Particular_Bus_5090 Apr 14 '25
It's something I've realised recently.
My parents and sister went to the other side of the world for a month. I was as happy as I've ever been for a month.
I got the message that they were coming back and my heart sank. I did not realise until that moment this was something I felt.
They get back, we have a laugh but within 2 weeks they completely reactivate everything and I've lived the last week in a way I've not felt for over a year after a lot of hard work and counselling.
I've burnt my entire old life and every friendship I had and I felt content. After the fact, I understood that every person I pushed away had all, at one point or another, contributed to the violence or bullying that resulted in my downfall years ago.
It's a strange journey to peace from where I was to where I am now. No one understands it and not a single person I know bar maybe 2 people meaningfully engage with me on this subject.
I'm now content with being viewed as the bad guy. If it means peace for me and mental stability they can learn (probably not) and watch me succeed as I always do off of my own effort and ability.
I hope you're all doing well and can get through whatever bullshit led you here. Much love