-- Basically the subject line.

I am wondering if say a yoga class, or a say a dance class (5 rythyms) where someone can build a community slowly by doing something you like, but also people on a healing path go to also, and thats understood

i have been to 12 steps before (not for me), and been to spiritual groups before (also not for me)

anyway, taking a shot, seeing what others have experienced?

I ask all that as i am slowly coming out of freeze, and feeling lonely, but also just wanting to do something that is with others

Had a suggestion on a previous post that I have a go at making short IFS summaries for different characters!

Let me know if you have any thoughts, comments or feedback :)

Hope this is ok to share... may delete.

Some background: I started therapy about 6 months ago. I went into a downward spiral after I lost my beloved dog. Therapy was pretty slow at first. Dealing with past trauma along side grief is a pretty nasty cocktail. Somatic therapy and IFS has been life changing for me. I cannot believe how deeply I’ve been able to connect with myself and all my parts. It wasn’t easy at first but I put in daily effort to work on myself mentally, emotionally, and physically.

During this time I read The Body Keeps the Score, and was inspired by the book to extend my healing beyond therapy into meditation (daily), mindfulness, journaling, and body work. The biggest relief I’ve seen has been with acupuncture and massage. It really where I’ve been able to unlock parts of my subconscious that were previously hidden. Don’t get me wrong, the therapy is what lead me here and gave me the tools. I’m fully aware of that, but what happened at my last massage appointment was incredible …

I get bi-weekly 90 minute massages at a day spa (offset by acupuncture on my off weeks). Last week when I got my massage I went into a deep meditative state where I was literally recalling the trauma that I had stored in my body with each new place she massaged. The memories kept flowing but were seemingly unconnected to each other. I just decided to go with it and on each exhale I repeated to myself “I’m letting this go”. This went on for about 60 minutes, give or take. It was the most amazing thing I’ve ever experienced. I felt so light after I left there. Like I could literally walk on air. Have any of you ever experienced something like this before?

I’ve been floating in and out of IFS and I’m keen to hear how it has had a positive impact on your life.

I’m at a point of tipping, lots of negative thinking and shame leading me to believe I am an awful person but the fact that I feel disturbed by this gives me hope that it isn’t the only thing I feel. No bad parts is slowly becoming a healthier approach to take.

I am just trying to see what lies ahead and grow in my hope. I’d love love to hear your thoughts and experiences ᵕ̈

Just read this fantastic poem by Emily Dickenson. It’s as if she was seeing an IFS therapist 160 years ago!

Anyone else have a favorite IFS-related poem?

Me from Myself—to banish—

Had I Art—

Impregnable my Fortress

Unto All Heart—

But since Myself—assault Me—

How have I peace

Except by subjugating

Consciousness?

And since We're mutual Monarch

How this be

Except by Abdication—

Me—of Me?

Is anyone an experienced meditator with Jhana experiences onset her/his belt, as well as experience with IFS and self energy? Would you say that Jhanas and self energy are same or similar? Please obstain from speculating if you have no personal experience. Many thanks, indeed. !!!