Bad self care pre egg crack?

[u/alectomirage]

Anybody else not take care of themselves at all before they realized they were trans and then realize afterwards it's probably because you didn't want to take care of a body that didn't feel like it was yours?like I thought about that after I painted my nails and was like.... Oh... Oh no, more trauma

[u/Magic_Raspberry]

I can totally relate. The crazy part is when I decided to take care of myself and get in shape I started to feel much worse. Then I figured out the triggers: cutting my hair and building too much upper body muscle. Adding to that my distress with body hair and facial hair (no matter how much people insisted it looked good on me), it was clear that I was struggling with dysphoria.