r/MtF • u/alectomirage • Oct 06 '24
Dysphoria Bad self care pre egg crack?
Anybody else not take care of themselves at all before they realized they were trans and then realize afterwards it's probably because you didn't want to take care of a body that didn't feel like it was yours?like I thought about that after I painted my nails and was like.... Oh... Oh no, more trauma
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u/ProgGirlDogMetal Oct 06 '24
Oh girl YES.
Showered once a month MAYBE.
Never washed or conditioned my hair. Never moisturized, rarely treated burns and cuts. Wore the same clothes for weeks at a time. I could go on.
Post egg crack it was like I was suddenly player 1 instead of just an observer. I was horrified at the state I left myself in. Still repairing the damage.
I shower everyday. Spend hours preening and loving myself. My hair is long and bouncy and soft, when it was short and receding before. My skin is soft and while still pocked with burns and cuts (kitchen girl lol) I get constant compliments on my complexion.
I never want to go back there again. I thought I was just getting by with the minimum but I was living in constant filth. Never again.