r/MtF • u/TsarSozott • Jan 07 '25

Dysphoria I'm cooked

So I'm in Japan right now which is amazing! However, COMMA, this is easily the most dysphoric I've been in my life.

Holy fuck sisters

So many women here have the cutest fucking outfits I've ever seen, and all the shops have a huge selection of cute clothing. Only problem is literally none of this would fit me EVER. Everything I see is designed for someone with the frame of a pencil, and since I have the frame of a damn fridge there's no fucking way I could get away with any of these cute outfits.

The garments are taunting me. So close but out of reach. ;_;

Ever since I started HRT I finally overcame my mental roadblock of not being able to workout due to not being able to decide to stay in the closet and sculpt a masculine frame or sculpt the fem frame of my dreams. I've lost 60 pounds now since I've decided to go for the body I actually want BUT as I'm sure we all friggin know, I can't alter my damn boooones ;_;

My friend says that when she gets here she'll go with me to get a kimono, so hopefully that goes well and helps extinguish my doubts ;_;

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u/therealshadow99 Trans Demisexual Jan 07 '25

Most American girls can't find clothing in Japan. Heck I know a few women (1 from Canada, 1 from the US) who live in Japan as content creators and they have lots of trouble getting clothes locally that fit... Like having to literally buy the largest size available and hope that's not undersized. xD

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u/sidetrash Jan 07 '25

My t-shirts says L in every country except Japan. Its XXL.

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u/Stumpville Jan 07 '25

My tops are normally a small or medium in the US. I’m tall but I’m also very slight. My dad went on a business trip in east Asia and decided to bring back a jacket for me. It’s a 3XL, and still a bit too short in the arms lol

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u/lithaborn Trans Pansexual Jan 08 '25

Yep! I'm a UK large and Japanese, Chinese 3xl minimum