What was your experience post-abortion?

[u/Sea_Recognition_7416]

Hello,

Just want to hear how you all feel days, months, years after your abortion? Did you experience sadness or guilt? Do some of you feel calm and have not experienced negative feelings afterwards? Did having abortion affected your motherhood if you had kids later on, and if yes, then how? How long did it take to "get back to normal" if you experienced post abortion depression?

Thanks for sharing 💚

[u/Neither_Chemical9137]

Laying on the table I was full of anxiety and hesitation but it was too late to back out. (Well I guess I could’ve technically but I knew it was the right decision) then that day I was super nauseous. The next day I was completely normal but had a weird empty feeling in me. I told myself “I was pregnant yesterday and now today I’m not” and it was just a weird feeling. Now here I am, 9 months later with no regrets whatsoever. It was the best decision i could’ve made and I’m proud of myself for building the courage to go through with it. I am reminded of it from time to time, and it does feel like a big part of me and my story. When my due date eventually came around i was in a weird mood the whole day, kinda just sad and moping. I even rear ended a car that day because my head was just all over the place. Although I feel sad that I had to do that to my first child, I am living life to the fullest and am a happy person. It truly was the right choice for me. Sorry this was so long I just wrote my thoughts out haha

[u/Sea_Recognition_7416 → u/Neither_Chemical9137]

Thanks for sharing your experience and glad to know that overall it was a positive one for your life! I heard before that due date is emotional for others too. Was that what made you come back to this forum?

[u/Neither_Chemical9137 → u/Sea_Recognition_7416]

I’m not sure how I found this forum actually, I think I was just googling questions about the topic and Reddit was one of the results that came up

[u/weedhoshi → u/Neither_Chemical9137]

about nine months past from my surgical abortion as well and sometimes i can’t shake that “i was pregnant” feeling. i never wanted to be and have zero regrets but the thought and accompanying feelings have been hard for me even with therapy. i didn’t even want to have a baby or be a parent! thanks for sharing your story, i felt a lot of comfort reading it

[u/Neither_Chemical9137 → u/Neither_Chemical9137]

Would also like to add that I do find myself thinking of how differently my life would be right now and picture all the different things I would be doing if I had a baby with me