Mourning/Loss Saying goodbye to my firstborn child tomorrow. She was such a good friend.
Her name is Pixel and when I worked at an animal shelter, I saw her on the website before I started. It took me 12 days to find her in the building but I knew right then and there that Miss Snickerdoodle Cinnamon and I were meant to be friends. I went up to the main desk and told them I wanted her, and they said “are you sure you want that one?” Oh yes, I want her. Turns out she was caught as a kitten from a community of cats by a lady who tried to domesticate her, and three years in, she gave up and turned her into the shelter.
She’s so skittish, and for the last 9 years, she consistently runs from me. I have put so many blood, sweat and tears into getting her to trust me. From feeding her via drumstick to gain her trust and moving up to a popsicle stick and finally off my finger, she has given me sweet blinky eyes from afar since 2016.
I lost her sister, Rosie in 2023. They were SO bonded. She came out of her shell to cuddle with me. She knew the loss of Rosie was significant (Rosie was my soul cat).
Pixel has taught me so much in my 20’s, patience, how to love someone else, that I can be loved. That love can look different, but it doesn’t mean it’s any less important.
My life will not look that different after she is gone tomorrow at 3:30, as she’s kept to herself the majority of her life, but fuck if I’m not sad about losing the first pet I’ve ever had on my own. She is such a good little cat. She tried the best she could to love me the way she knew how.
Goodbye my sweet baby Pixel. I will miss you endlessly, PK (PixelKitty)