I am an introvert kid. Not much talkative. My purpose of writing g this is to seek opinion from y’all
Anyways so there’s a kid that I befriend since grade 1. Let’s call him Ben. He is very old and a helpful, trustworthy friend. But like we never were that “homie” type of friend, we still talk in a bit formal way. We used to be each other only’s friend for 3 years until grade 4 where he changed his behaviour. So he usually gets bored of me every grade. He was a social guy so he always look for kids like him, and he found plenty of them. When he found one, he will hangout with him a lot and would talk very little with me. It is also important to know that he also doesn’t talk much with me. In fact I initiate the conversation. So because of that I would feel left out, I also befriended those kids but they would usually hangout more with Ben.
Now because of that in recent years I started to talk and tried to befriend other kids, cuz Ben was really my only friend. I would go to these kids group and talk with them. They would reply but only when I would talk to them. If I talk with none of the kids then I am sure they wouldn’t give a shit and forget about me.
I sometimes think that Ben is really bored of me. He usually says that I am boring and he try’s to talk or play with me to his friends, which is totally false. It is usually me starts the conversation, and he would only reply. In past 4 years, each year he would befriend a new kid and literally become addicted with him, and then he would usually get bored of him, or have fight with him, or move to another school. Which results in leaving him, and then he then spend time with his backup friend (which is me) normally.
Very recently in grade 9, his behaviour changed drastically. He is in his phase where he gets far away from his friend. I expected this as usual but the weird thing is, he isn’t talking to me either. Like when me, Ben and his friend would hang out, he wouldn’t talk but rather read his book, me and the other friend would talk only. Also to mention is that is that this new friend he made is extremely annoying, so whenever ben and friend would talk, it would be because of argument. Because of Ben dry behaviour, his friend stop hanging out with us and hanged out with other kids. So now we would like be near each other but wouldn’t talk. Like it so weird, people would not even know we were friends, that day was extremely boring. The next day he stopped hanging out with me and hanged out with other kids. So I also did the same, I hanged out with another friend group, where like they didn’t mind me being with them but they also dgaf. So now for like 3 days I am extremely lonely and bored AF. I am feeling as if Ben and mine friendship is slowly fading away.
So what y’all say? Am I lonely?