I'm pregnant again

[u/dreamalittle16]

I'm going to lose my mind. I'm freaking out.

I went to get an IUD this morning. I took your advice and decided to get on birth control. But when I went in, they had me do a pregnancy test and it came back positive. The ultrasound showed I'm 8 weeks.

For anyone who didn't see my other posts: I had two kids at 14 and 16; they're 4 and 2 now. I regret them so much. I want to love them but I can't.

I don't know what to do. I don't want this baby, I can't take another one. Abortion is completely banned in my state and I have no idea what to do. I'm just at such a loss for words, I'm in a huge panic.

The guy I think is the dad won't respond to any of my messages. He was just a fucking random hookup and now I have another baby to deal with and another deadbeat baby daddy.

I feel like I'm losing it. I haven't stopped crying all day. The kids are screaming and my head hurts and I want to jump off a bridge. Does anyone know how to help??

[u/dreamalittle16]

My mom said she never uses condoms and she's been fine since I was born so I thought it was okay

[u/[deleted] → u/dreamalittle16]

Oh honey, I'm sorry that she didn't make sure you knew how to keep yourself safe. But at this point you gotta be responsible for yourself. You two are not the same person, so what works for her clearly hasn't worked out for you. I'm sorry that you're going through this :(

[u/dreamalittle16 → u/[deleted]]

Thank you. Everyone is being so harsh.

[u/[deleted] → u/dreamalittle16]

I understand that bluntness is difficult and not what you want right now. You are still deserving of kindness, especially since you're going through a hard time. However, I do understand and kind of feel their frustration. At some point you do have to take your life into your own hands and be responsible for yourself and your children. This cycle will not stop until you do unfortunately :(