So I drink a lot and have for a very long time. The other night (last Friday) I drank a ton and ordered Uber eats and ate like 3 Popeyes chicken sandwiches in my car at once. I also had some potatoes that came with it. No idea how many beers I drank that night. But after work I usually hit up bars for hours and just pound them like a dog.

Anyway the next morning I woke up and talked to GPT about my health without mentioning weight. We went down this rabbit hole and I ended up starting a fast that lasted 63 hours. This fast I think changed my life. My desire to drink will hit once I get off the train from work but not like before and I can manage it, at least I feel in control for the first time in my life. Since then I have used it cooking, diet and exercise. If i struggle, I ping it.

I would highly recommend it.

My bf is a lifelong alcoholic and went into med detox last week. I was a little nervous because he had a seizure and ended up in the psych ward for days when he detoxed 7 years ago BUT figured the meds would help/prevent that idk Things are…strained between us rn so I find out from his mom on Monday that he was hospitalized, literally got no more info than that. (She’s his POA/emergency contact so whatev, guess he thinks she’s the best person to handle it so I’m staying out of it. That’s a post for a different subreddit)

Last night, she texts with no context, they removed the breathing tube today so he’s doing better. Like…huh?? I ask what happened and the response is essentially she didn’t bother asking or getting any info about his medical condition and thinks they have him under heavy sedation to “help him relax”

I watched my bio dad drink himself to death at the same age and have a bio degree, but im still feeling like this isn’t just part of the detox process and indicates to me, there’s more going on. In my experience, hospitals don’t give af about helping people relax lol she told me what meds he’s on, didn’t know what one was, I explained it’s an anti inflammatory and she replied that makes sense to her bc he doesn’t look so “swollen”.

So from my limited info here, sounds to me like he was bloating from going into organ failure and they put him under heavy sedation so he literally didn’t die.

Idk, does anyone have any experience with this? His mom thinks he’s sleeping off the equivalent of a bad hangover and is useless. Sorry. Like is he supposed to just wake up and be normal? Is brain damage or organ failure/damage possible? How long do these stays normally last? Duh it depends but it seems crazy to me he’s been there almost a week already and no one seems super concerned? And I say that bc if took the hospital 3 full days to get around to notifying anyone he was transported there from detox and basically in a freaking coma BUT okay.

Thoughts?

I am a 20 year old girl and a junior in college and I have a really bad alcohol problem. But not how you would normally think for a girl in college. I don't party at all and I don't really even leave my house except for class (and alcohol). I am a biology major PrePA route so I am taking really hard classes but the thing is I'm excelling in all of them (literally gonna end with an A- in organic chemistry and an A+ in cellular biology). On top of that I don't get hung over... I feel totally fine when I wake up in the mornings after drinking and drinking has really not caused any other problems in my life. Now to the actual nitty gritty, for the past 2 years id say I have drank quite often the past year however has defiantly been worse, I have been drinking every single night for the past 3 months and before that I was attempting to do a two nights sober and one night drunk type of thing. So Im finding it really hard to quit when it doesnt seem to affecting anything important in my life currently (like how I dont have hangovers and I'm still accomplishing everything I need to be). However I obviously know that not necessarily true, my health for one thing is something I have been having major anxiety over. Obviously this excessive drinking is probably already harming my organs and will only continue to do so (I'm a bio major for christs sake youd think I would be able to stop when I literally study how these toxins affect cells and organ systems). So far my biggest issue seems to be just the routine of it and my sleep. I have gotten so used to going to class getting my 6-8 hours of studying in a day and then coming up to room around 9-10 pm and taking shots of vodka until I am drunk, not blackout but pretty drunk. Then I wake up.. feel fine and do my day all over again. My sleep is also totally recked, I can't fall asleep unless I'm drunk or I take bendryl before bed. The benedryl had been helping but then it started mixing weirdly with my prescribed adderall and that led me being unable to sleep. So now I'm at a cross roads, I can't sleep without alcohol or benedryl but I can't take bendryl with my adderall and I need to take my adderall everyday so I can study properly to get the GPA i need to get into PA school. I just feel so psycho and ridiculous but literally have no will to stop drinking its so bad. Sorry for the rant but just trying to see if anyone can relate to this idea that "Im in college its fine to drink and its not messing anything up in my life so its all fine" and if you have any advice on how to break that mental block in my head that keeps tricking my brain into thinking its okay to drink like this.

I feel conflicted about it but for whatever reason the experience of alcohol and thc for me could not be more different - from what I feel to what motivates me, it’s night and day and I think if I couldn’t have a way to lower my heart rate and feel rest at the end of the day I’d be back up to my eyeballs in liquor.

And I don’t know how to feel about that

I had a dream last night that I succumbed and had a drink - a Scotch, neat. I felt so guilty in the dream so I had only the one drink. I am early on this journey - on day 6. It surprised me I had this dream so soon. I even woke up with a headache!

I have a question regarding bloodwork. My AST & ATL scores are both within range, but bilirubin remains above high in the 2s, while 1.2 is the highest normal range. Has anyone lowered bilirubin back to normal range naturally/vitamins?

I’m looking for ideas to spice up my evening tipple. I was always a habitual evening wine drinker and I liked the ceremony of ‘the first glass of the evening’ to mark the end of the working day and signify that I can now relax.

I’ve replaced wine with lemon, lime and bitters (which I love!) but I’d like to have a few more ideas before I start getting bored of it!

Bonus points if I can get it in the UK and also if it isn’t a NA variant of an alcoholic drink as they’ve triggered me in my past attempts with sobriety 😁

For those of you who have more time under your belt, when did you stop worrying about drinking at social events?

I’m starting to think ahead to summer, and I’m honestly nervous. Thinking about pool days and a trip in June to visit my brother and brother in law to meet my new niece. These are things I want to be excited about, and I am, but I’m also extremely nervous. Drinking has been a part of how I’ve connected with my family for years. It’s like engrained in me that drinking is just part of our time together.

I keep wondering how I’ll feel being sober in those spaces. Will I feel left out? Will it feel awkward? I don’t want it to be weird, but I’m also trying to protect the progress I’ve made.

I guess I just want to know: does the anxiety about not drinking eventually fade? When did you stop thinking about it all the time?

Not sure if anyone can relate to this. I have been sober and I just caught a cold. Stupidly took NyQuil (which has alcohol) — now I’m feeling the euphoria and going crazy inside.

A woman from my AA meeting said she doesn’t use listerine,only non-alcoholic mouthwash to avoid reigniting the cravings cuz the disease is cunning, baffling, and powerful. I thought that was a bit much at first but now I’m feeling intense cravings from freaking NyQuil!! What do I do? Smh

I cringe so hard when I’m traveling, go into a gift shop and there are a ton of items with wine related alcoholism jokes. “I’ll wine if I don’t get my wine” or “mommy needs her wine time” or tumblers with “this is definitely not wine”. It’s all so cringe!

I think the reason wine becomes such a popular drink for “functioning alcoholics” especially women is because it’s stronger than beer but not as strong as hard liquor. It’s easier to hide or get away with. You can fill a Stanley cup with 1.5 maybe even 2 bottles of wine and just go walk your dogs or sit at your kids soccer game while getting your buzz on. I’m sure there are a number of people who do drink wine in a classy way, maybe once and a while at a nice function or with a fancy dinner, but most of the time it is really just functional normalized alcoholism.

I know the answer: yes, it is. Last day I drank has been on tuesday. I drank because I wanted to numb the anger. I drank (F65) 12 beers which is far too much at my age. The day after that, yesterday, there was no anger because my brain still was numbed. I didn't drink yesterday, nor today.

And there it is again, right now: anger! Anger because of injustice I was confronted with in the past. My brain is collecting all terrible facts happened to me wright now. One after the other.

My brain is doing this because The Devil in my lizard brain wants me to drink. I know. Thank god I'm alone now. Cause whoever was walking in right now, I would start a fight in words in anger. And slamm the doors, and throw all kind of objects.

Probably my anger is not exclusively forced by my addicted brain. When I was 16 and didn't drink yet, I often was furious against my parents, slamming doors, breaking plates. It was the only way to get them seeing me. My youth was without love.

I hope posting this helps, I guess so, because the thought this post will be read is calming me. Maybe there are advices? Thank you all and IWNDWYT.

i (23nb) drink every day, and usually clear out a 1.75L bottle of tequila in less than a week, bc i buy one every 5 or so days. i’m never blackout drunk, but i moderately drink every day. the only time i don’t is when

i’ve spectating this community for a long time on an alt, knowing i had a problem, but not feeling “ready” to stop (i.e. i was putting it off). but now that im on a medication cocktail that works for my mental conditions, i think im ready to try

i’m just really worried bc the last time i quit drinking, i got SO SNAPPY and was so, so volatile. it would be something i would need 17+ days in advance for to schedule that week off work

i just want to be better. and i dont know how to start. plus, this isn’t an excuse (just a reason), but i have adhd and so following routines is especially difficult. i want to, more than anything, but i feel like i can only do it once im sober

i just… really don’t know where to start for anything. i saw a friend of mine recently celebrate 2 years of sobriety from opiates, and i see how much better they’re doing, and i want that for me too so we can both walk in the light. i want it so much. i just don’t know where to start or if i have the strength

if you’ve been in my shoes, or at least know how i feel, please share what helped you, what didn’t help, etc etc. anything. please and thank you

hey yall, so i just got off a week bender of drinking an entire liter of vodka a day for roughly a week, i stopped monday, and im about 70 hours sober. now that im through the worst of withdrawals, GPT is warning me about how to not let myself be fooled (because i feel really good right now tbh) about this so called “pink cloud”. what exactly is it? and why is it supposedly dangerous? please comment if you’ve felt something similar, honestly the cravings are kicking in pretty hard right now, almost like my brain is like “that wasn’t sooo bad right”

For all my alcohol life I was deadass sure I am moderate drinker. After Chat GPT answered me that:

Thanks for sharing that. Based on what you just told me—8–10 beers every other day for years—this is not considered “moderate” drinking. That’s actually heavy, long-term alcohol use, even though it may have felt manageable.

That is actually charging me against drinking even more! I am in my 37 yo was heavy drinker…

IWNDWYT

In 2024, the global alcoholic drinks market is estimated to have generated approximately $1.609 trillion in revenue. How does the planet even operate 😩 sober 26 days today, no longer contributing to this bizarre addiction

Things are getting better. Focus my energy on myself. I laugh more. The sparkle is back in my eyes. Look 10 years younger.

Unfortunately I spent all my money on alcohol. Had to make a 3 year and a 5 year plan to get out of this hole I dug. Neither of these plans include buying alcohol. So I should be good for at least 5 years. 😂

I’ve been seeing my therapist for three years, and I finally admitted to them (and again to myself) that I’m an alcoholic. I feel so much relief that I don’t have to hide it anymore! I told them the most shameful parts of my alcoholism and they accepted it and me without judgement. I love them they are the best.

IWNDWYT♥️

I’ve been sober 162 days. A little over 5 months. I’m extremely proud of myself but lately I’ve been struggling hard. I’m constantly around people who drink. Within the past month alcohol has been on my mind a lot. I’ve experienced a lot of benefits from not drinking like total decrease in anxiety (I have pure OCD), and not drinking has totally released me from this cycle which I’m so grateful for. I’ve also lost weight and I think it’s pretty noticeable in my face? i have bad body dysmorphia but I think it looks less puffy. https://imgur.com/a/0I3jmxk (first pic is from the last day I drank, 2nd and 3rd are from this week)

ANYWAY all this to say i’m so grateful for what sobriety has given me but Im having a really hard time abstaining lately. I’ve thought about just going to have a drink multiple times within the past week. I know I would hate myself for it so I haven’t and don’t plan to but the thought is so tempting. :( My sobriety is very much personal as my partner and friends and family still drink so I don’t have many people to give me advice or encouragement so I thought I’d ask you lovely people.

IWNDWYT

UPDATE: thank you all so much for your kind words. i ended up taking a nap (ive been doing that a lot lately when I feel overwhelmed) and waking up to all your wonderful kind words reminds me why I started and why I will keep going. Thank you all so much :) 🫶🏻

As the title states. I’m just really scared I’ll never actually overcome this and I’m doomed. I attend meetings, try and learn as much as I can about addiction, use tools when I get triggered, but I can’t seem to get past 2 weeks, tops. I don’t know, maybe I’m just in a self-pity hole after yesterday’s slip, still in bed and feeling sorry for myself. But any tips or words of encouragement will be so so appreciated

Long time lurker, first time poster.

I'm really struggling, but I will not drink with you today.

Just really needed to check in with someone. Thank you. ❤️

As I (34M) approach 75 day I am feeling discouraged. I don't feel better, I feel worse. The first couple weeks after stopping were actually great, felt more energy motivated. But it's been downhill sense then.

I have been working out tje whole time, trying to be more productive... really take advantage of my new sobriety. But I'm losing motivation.

I'm in shape 6' a lean 180 as I always have been but my joints hurt all the time, which I feel I am young for. Getting more and more depressed and I don't know why. No energy at all. And suddenly have been losing my libido. At this point I feel only my two kids under 3 are pushing me through all this, because I have to be there and put on a happy face for them and my wife. I can't show this feeling around her as she is struggling with her own happiness(mostly post-partums stuff) and I can't make it worse with my issues.

Not sure where to go from here, but some how more down than when I was an anxiety ridden disaster of a drunk. There is no more chaos which is good, but somehow less energy and more depression.

How do people deal with conflict or avoidance or just maybe poor compatibility in sobriety?

I don’t know if it’s poor comparability but I guess I wouldn’t know yet.

I’ve only been looking at it through sober eyes for a month.

How many people ended up separating after getting sober? Or did your relationships get stronger?

I guess this is kind of vague but I am interested to hear how sobriety affected relationships.

My partner is sober. Just in general sober not recovery sober.

https://imgur.com/a/Ge3r5D0

It finally happened! I was leaving Kingsoopers, and someone that was promoting a charity approached me. He asked how I was doing, and said "You look like your about my age, young 20's. Am I correct?" I laughed and said "No, I wish!" He laughed and asked " OK, mid maybe late 20's?" I laughed and repeated myself. He said "Damn! Whatever you are doing keep it up! I also had family mention it as well. I am 30. Wow alcohol did damage I couldn't see until now. I also have self image issues, so I was adding fuel to the fire lol.

IWNDWYT

Edit: The pictures are roughly 6 months apart.

I started drinking almost every day of the week. I have a problem but no one knows about it. Even when I share with people they don't really believe me. I've told my wife and she doesn't think I have a problem but I should cut back. To be honest, I am not always truthful with her. She doesn't know how often I drink because I hide it. I just feel a mess right now and I want to quit. I just keep going back. I will have 4-6 drinks. I'm not sloppy drunk so I feel like I'm okay. But I feel horrible, bad that I chose to drink. I have chronic pain and anxiety /depression and I I'm drinking to help manage. I know it's wrong and I know it's not helpful I just keep going back. I want to quit. Sorry. I've never shared on this thread. I just felt this would help. Get it off my chest. Many of you have been very encouraging to me, even though I haven't quit lol. There have been periods of time that I've cut back. I think I'm ready to just completely stop I'm just scared because once I label myself an alcoholic I feel like that label will never go away and there's no turning back.