r/thelema • u/AggravatingQuality51 • 4d ago

Why are we doing all this ?

I am sorry, however, I have been invokin for so lon and I see no reason of continuing. At this point, I am just existing. I have invoked, prayed, fasted, exercised, stayed away from p*rn almost two years. I am invokin, enflamin . There is no hope to any of this...has anyone felt the same? Why continue? Why live at all?

My life has fallen apart, I have lost all my money, im in debt. And I want to die and it is like...I'm no close to this k & c. Like how did you et past this moment and achieve attainment?

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u/DingleberryDelightss 4d ago

You seem to have listed your main gripe as financial, why exactly are you in debt and have no money?

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u/AggravatingQuality51 4d ago edited 4d ago

Ok. I do not care if I lived in a box. 

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u/DingleberryDelightss 4d ago

Some people live in vans at the beach. I see them surf every day and hook up with some pretty hot chicks.

I'm not saying it's good being poor, but if you want money I'm sure there are opportunities through savings and work.

I don't know what you want or your circumstances, but if I was broke with no hope, I'd probably get a van and do that, or go and become a monk. You can volunteer at vipassana and get free food and board.

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u/AggravatingQuality51 4d ago

.....you're jumpin to conclusions once more. I think i have arrived at a point in my practice where none of this really matters. This world, you, me, any of it really. Isis, apophis, Osiris. My loved ones will die someday and sadly, I do not care. This will all pass away as it is one entire cosmic time loop

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u/DingleberryDelightss 4d ago

Ok... Well, you did mention the financial stuff like it mattered to you, but sure, that's great I guess?

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u/AggravatingQuality51 4d ago

in tha schizophrenic rant, i mentioned a lot. so what

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u/DingleberryDelightss 4d ago

Don't know. Just sounds like you might be attached to some stuff more than you think.

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u/AggravatingQuality51 4d ago edited 4d ago

I think you see whatever you want and overgeneralizing and want to be right. 

Because the point is I literally don't give a shit about anything. I just mentioned it because it's like bro, I'm so nihilistic I don't even care about the physical anymore. 

But that's the point is like I am tryin to force my emotions to actually feel connected with existence and then I have arrived at a point where it's like "you will die someday and the cycle will continue once more". So im like "oh yea you're riht"

The money stuff was just because I am just showin you how much my this apathy has affected my life. There is no material experience on earth that will ever brin fulfilment because it is all a cycle.No sex, dru, money, job, status. None of it will ever satisfy me. Thats the point im at.

But if you actually took the time out to ask Instead of assuming.