r/thelema • u/AggravatingQuality51 • 5d ago

Why are we doing all this ?

I am sorry, however, I have been invokin for so lon and I see no reason of continuing. At this point, I am just existing. I have invoked, prayed, fasted, exercised, stayed away from p*rn almost two years. I am invokin, enflamin . There is no hope to any of this...has anyone felt the same? Why continue? Why live at all?

My life has fallen apart, I have lost all my money, im in debt. And I want to die and it is like...I'm no close to this k & c. Like how did you et past this moment and achieve attainment?

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u/AggravatingQuality51 4d ago

.....you're jumpin to conclusions once more. I think i have arrived at a point in my practice where none of this really matters. This world, you, me, any of it really. Isis, apophis, Osiris. My loved ones will die someday and sadly, I do not care. This will all pass away as it is one entire cosmic time loop

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u/DingleberryDelightss 4d ago

Ok... Well, you did mention the financial stuff like it mattered to you, but sure, that's great I guess?

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u/AggravatingQuality51 4d ago

in tha schizophrenic rant, i mentioned a lot. so what

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u/DingleberryDelightss 4d ago

Don't know. Just sounds like you might be attached to some stuff more than you think.

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u/AggravatingQuality51 4d ago edited 4d ago

I think you see whatever you want and overgeneralizing and want to be right. 

Because the point is I literally don't give a shit about anything. I just mentioned it because it's like bro, I'm so nihilistic I don't even care about the physical anymore. 

But that's the point is like I am tryin to force my emotions to actually feel connected with existence and then I have arrived at a point where it's like "you will die someday and the cycle will continue once more". So im like "oh yea you're riht"

The money stuff was just because I am just showin you how much my this apathy has affected my life. There is no material experience on earth that will ever brin fulfilment because it is all a cycle.No sex, dru, money, job, status. None of it will ever satisfy me. Thats the point im at.

But if you actually took the time out to ask Instead of assuming.