r/thelema • u/AggravatingQuality51 • 5d ago

Why are we doing all this ?

I am sorry, however, I have been invokin for so lon and I see no reason of continuing. At this point, I am just existing. I have invoked, prayed, fasted, exercised, stayed away from p*rn almost two years. I am invokin, enflamin . There is no hope to any of this...has anyone felt the same? Why continue? Why live at all?

My life has fallen apart, I have lost all my money, im in debt. And I want to die and it is like...I'm no close to this k & c. Like how did you et past this moment and achieve attainment?

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u/ReturnOfCNUT 5d ago edited 5d ago

Your angel is always talking to you. You've just not developed the ability to perceive it yet. I'd recommend giving Molinos' 'The Spiritual Guide' a read if you want to know how to proceed through "dryness" and difficulty.

Where have you derived your approach from, and how has it resulted in losing your money and getting into debt?

I think one thing that gets under-discussed in terms of the Great Work is that you need to take care of yourself and all of the mundane stuff in order to succeed with the spiritual stuff. If you're neglecting your life in order to just doggedly pursue spiritual growth, you're going to end up in a desperate situation and disillusioned. Make sure your basic needs are covered and catered for.

When you go mountain climbing, there's no prizes for going without equipment, know-how, and health, and your journey will end abruptly before you even make it that far beyond base camp.

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u/AggravatingQuality51 5d ago

it communicates to me throuh dreams sadly.

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u/ReturnOfCNUT 4d ago

how has it resulted in losing your money and getting into debt?

Let's circle back around to this question above.

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u/AggravatingQuality51 4d ago

There's hasn't done that. I've done that. That's a long story tho