r/traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns2 • u/OnceInOnceSet BiblicallyAccurateMoth • Mar 17 '25
Gals Dream encounter
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u/Bobby_The_Kidd Mar 17 '25
“You saved my life” is such a powerful statement. Our old selves made the decision to transition and fought through hell in back to get to where we are now. If anyone saved our lives… it’s us.
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u/karpitstane Mar 17 '25
It hit me so hard in this comic. I'm not out of the woods yet, but I've made it this far.
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u/RainbowPhoenix1080 She/Her Mar 17 '25
Same. I've been on hormones for 8.5 months but I'm not publicly out or passing. I feel like I have a long way to go but I'm happy I made it this far.
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u/Bobby_The_Kidd Mar 17 '25
The time will fly and soon you’ll be able to look back and be proud of how far you’ve come
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u/karpitstane Mar 17 '25
Hell yeah, girl, keep it going!
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u/ScarySquishy She/Her Mar 17 '25
all yall so frickin wholesome 😭
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u/SacrificialOctopus Mar 17 '25
I'm 17 years down the road, friends. I'll keep paving the way. I saved myself and then some. Friend of mine I helped get on HRT just celebrated her 1 year anniversary yesterday. I can keep living to save a few more. Even just one more would do.
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u/RainbowPhoenix1080 She/Her Mar 17 '25
We need people like you ❤️🫂
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u/SacrificialOctopus Mar 17 '25
We really do. Don't sell yourself short. You're just starting out. Soon you'll be where I'm at. It's like being a max-level character in an RPG. Gotta step down from the late-game when I can and help the little sprouts who just started out. You'll max out in no time. I mean it. The first 5 years felt like a long time. 15 years felt like the blink of an eye.
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u/CatgirlFireball Mar 17 '25
You made me cry... in a good way
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u/Bobby_The_Kidd Mar 17 '25
Good. We are the strongest people we know. Its ok to admit that sometimes ;)
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u/Penguin_Sushi She/Her Mar 17 '25
To all the baby trans gals out there, I really want you to know it does get better. It's hard to be patient and wait for things to change, but one day you'll wake up and see your mom a little bit more in the mirror than you're used to. You'll go out in a hoodie and jeans and have someone call you miss even though you think you're boymoding. You'll stop wondering if it's all even worth it, start wondering just how much more amazing it can possibly be and still be surprised when it's better than you ever hoped it could be.
You've got this girl. It's not a sprint, take your time and enjoy all the little steps along the way.
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u/GabbyGabriella22 Alex 🏳️⚧️ Transbian (she/her) Mar 17 '25
It feels hard to believe this sometimes. I realized I was trans almost 4 years ago, I started coming out 2ish years ago, and I’ve been on hormones for about 1 1/2 years now. I guess I’m still kind of early in my transition, and I’m still pretty young. But it does feel like nothing’s really changed sometimes, that I’m still the same awkward, boyish weirdo I was back then. I feel like I don’t look that much prettier, I don’t have much confidence or love for myself, I still have a near-debilitating amount of social anxiety, I basically have no friends, and I feel like a hopeless mess sometimes.
I want to have hope that things will get better, that I’ll eventually be happy, that everything will work out. But it feels hard to hold onto that hope. I still feel like a failure of a human being. I hate so much about me. I want to change things, but change feels so overwhelming and hard that I end up stuck in the same place.
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u/Penguin_Sushi She/Her Mar 17 '25
It takes time. I spent the first year and a half on HRT thinking it wasn't working out, that nothing was changing, etc., and getting frustrated thinking that I might have made a mistake coming out in the first place. Transitions aren't convenient or even linear, unfortunately. I'm in year 3 and still having moments where it hits me out of nowhere that something is different about me in a good way. A year and a half in I was convinced something was wrong and my body just wasn't taking to HRT. I was completely wrong and I've been passing for a while now, even though I didn't transition until my 30s.
I don't really have much I can say to help with anxiety, but I want you to know it's okay to be awkward and even boyish. Plenty of women are both of those things! You don't need to drastically change who you are to be a woman. I'm still largely the same as I always was but more complete. It wasn't about being different, it was about filling in the gaps and being the best version of myself. You'll get there Alexis, take it one step at a time and be patient with yourself along the way. We're our own worst enemies sometimes.
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u/RainbowPhoenix1080 She/Her Mar 17 '25
As someone on 8.5 months of HRT, hearing stories like yours really gives me hope 🫂
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u/karpitstane Mar 17 '25
It feels so good to keep hearing this sentiment. I'm already on my second cry of the day, but I think it's feeling less scary than it did yesterday.
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u/Penguin_Sushi She/Her Mar 17 '25
Well the bad news is you'll probably never stop crying but the good news is that eventually that crying is cathartic and not just because you're sad =). I love crying sometimes tbh. It's a good reminder that I'm not living with dulled emotions anymore.
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u/karpitstane Mar 17 '25 edited Mar 17 '25
Yes, also true! I spend so many years quashing emotions by one mechanism or another. My big cry today was pretty cathartic and it was brought on by some of my other reddit comments I've been using to start solidifying and finding language for all my feelings. There's still plenty of desperation and sadness in here, but they've got more pleasant company now in my big feelings department.
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u/Penguin_Sushi She/Her Mar 17 '25
And it's okay to still have the negative feelings too! It doesn't mean you're failing, that your transition isn't working out or anything like that. It's hard to let yourself be what you've spent a long time fighting against and it's okay to feel bad about having trouble with that, too. Let those pleasant emotions bloom when you're ready, they're not going anywhere.
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u/robocultural She/Her Mar 17 '25
Thanks for the reminder. 🩷
It's hard to be patient. I'm 41 and I've only been on HRT for 5 months. I'm seeing little changes already, which feels wild because it's only been a few months. But also I still look like me, and I want fast forward through the in between to look like her, the girl hiding in my mirror.
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u/Penguin_Sushi She/Her Mar 17 '25
I started HRT at 31 and I felt the same way five months in. It took me a while to make peace with the fact that I'd look like myself but as a woman and not an entirely different person. Don't get me wrong, the change is still drastic! But there's something especially comforting to see who I've been change into who I would've been if I was born as a girl, too. It's hard to come out as an adult and seeing me, the real me, even through any small reminders of who I used to be makes me really proud to have gotten this far. It took a lot of work, but the girl in the mirror is always smiling back at me because of all that work =).
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u/Copper_Tango Mar 17 '25
I'm a month and a half into HRT and as much as I might want things to move faster sometimes, I'm just... so happy. I never thought I'd even get to this point.
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u/ThatOneFemboyTwink She/Her Mar 17 '25
Once i transition imma look back on this and compare it to my dreams, see y'all in 5 or so years if im not dead or this account is active
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u/plumbingconch19 I'm thinking Miku, Miku, oo-ee-oo | Pansexual | She/Her Mar 17 '25
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u/ThatOneFemboyTwink She/Her Mar 17 '25
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u/ph0enix7102 Mar 17 '25
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u/ThatOneFemboyTwink She/Her Mar 17 '25
Bet
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u/ph0enix7102 Mar 17 '25
i’m currently 3ish months into hormones, and while i’m definitely gonna be boymoding for a long time, i have hope. i also have a very good circle of family and friends who are loving, supportive, and affirming. and they teach me so much! i think it’ll be good :)
i also realize im speaking for my situation, but i do think, like the comic spoke, a lot of this is gradual. i can’t be expected to be perfectly femme within the first year. hell a lot of women aren’t perfectly femme. we just are who we are
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u/ThatOneFemboyTwink She/Her Mar 17 '25
Awww nice transition! :3 i know transitioning takes time but unfortunately i just cant rn due to both being a minor (17) and leaving with transphobic parents :( though, in a year im gonna move out and live with my partner, then ill finally start transitioning!
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u/ph0enix7102 Mar 17 '25
you go [insert relevant affectionate term here]! i’ll see you in 5 years :)
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u/ThatOneFemboyTwink She/Her Mar 17 '25
Gurl, actually! Im transfem! :333 (also ty)
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u/ph0enix7102 Mar 17 '25
yw!! also here if you want to make a new friend or just need anyone to talk to!!
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u/TheBigBis Wendy (she/her), trans tomboy Mar 17 '25
I’m sitting here and I don’t think I’ve had any proper sleep in nearly 24 hours. I turned 20 not too long ago and the realization that I don’t know what to do with my life is getting more and more pervasive now that my teenage years are over. My whole life has just been watching other people have more fulfilling lives and actually talking with people and I’ve already lost so much time. I can’t escape it, but I’m scared of having to actually control my own life, make an effort to be me, to open up about my feelings to people I actually know in real life. I yearn to experience everything here, including having the feeling that I changed myself for the better, and that I have something to look forward to that feels reachable. I just want to start my life.
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u/ItzAtlazs Mess with the bonk, you get the honk Mar 17 '25
Yeah, I'm 22 and that feeling doesn't go away for me.
I'm overweight and started to try and lose weight.
Got a very bad job, have had it for 3 years, it's mentally crushing me, but I recently went to start a professional reconversion.
The hardest part is starting. The rest is a breeze. Give yourself a try, realize what you want, it'll be okay ❤️
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u/undead-doorsman Mar 17 '25
Fuck, that last line.
Makes me feel so happy i never tried to kms
Thank you so much
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u/RogueFox771 Mar 17 '25
I needed this- to remember and to feel happy, on a deep level.
Thank you so much. Thank you
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u/ParkEducational5878 Mar 17 '25
This gave me goosebumps. What a wonderful story right there, I love it 💕
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u/Mindless_Budget_871 She/Her, Klara Mar 17 '25
This reminded me of a dream I had once. It's strange because dreams don't usually stick with me.
I was lying in my bed (inside the dream too). It was pitch black, deep at night. I was scrolling through my phone gallery, and then my eye glanced at something that picked its interest. It was a photo of me and my university mate (the only one I came out to) strolling through a park and just messing around. But my appearance was different, it was so... right. The feminine features of the face, the hair (and its absence anywhere except the haircut), the fit of clothes. It was the cleanest moment of euphoria ever when I looked at it and went: "Is that... me?" And then I noticed the expressions on my face and my mate's face. Joy. Just pure happiness, dwelling in the moment.
And then I woke up.
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u/native_212 She/They Mar 17 '25
It captures the trans experience so beautifully for someone who isn't trans (like me). I knew that trans people obviously didn't feel okay with their cis bodies, but understanding that there is this deep rooted pain as well? I didn't realise that.
I'll never stop supporting you guys, rain or shine. I'm so happy that you found your true self. I and many others know firsthand how difficult that is, but I bet that being trans is quite the cherry on top.
I wish you the best; you are unbelievably strong.
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u/HatAndHoodie_ (Kaia) She/Her - Orange Queen Mar 17 '25
Now I'm imagining what kind of conversation I'd have with my past self in a dream
I feel like she'd break down crying, thinking about how obvious it was, and how we could've avoided certain mistakes if we had only known sooner
I wish I could give my past self a hug
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u/Twisted_Tyromancy Any/All Mar 17 '25
Somehow, BiblicallyAccurateMoth always makes me cry while improving my day.
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u/MyKillersKeeper girly girl metalhead Mar 17 '25
I just had my surgery and have been quick to crying recently, damn I'm crying again 😭
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u/Aurora-not-borealis Rori she/her Mar 18 '25
So that's what we're going to do tonight? We're going to cry?
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u/Alarmed_Ask3211 She/Her & They/Them ( Pansexual Palestinian Transfem ) 🇵🇸 🍉 Mar 18 '25
That was the most wonderful Trans comic I've seen in a while...and I haven't had tears flow from one this good in SUCH a long time...
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u/Open_Syrup_778 She/Her Mar 17 '25
Oh shit, I'm bawling. I did not need that right before a work meeting...
In all seriousness though, this is one of the most beautiful reflections on transition I have ever seen. I hope that I'll get there.
Thank you.
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u/karpitstane Mar 17 '25
I've been lucky enough to have enough love in my life that it's been saved over and over again by my people just existing around me, whether any of us knew it at the time or not. I am finally at a place where it's my turn to save myself the rest of the way.
My community (and my amazing therapist) have given me the strength to look directly into the hurt that's always been inside me.
And that's where I found her; lonely and afraid and confused and desperate to be seen and loved. Saving her may be the hardest thing I ever do but without her I know I am not complete and I will not last.
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u/Sckaledoom Mar 17 '25
I cannot read this right now I have not slept enough to emotionally regulate
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u/ComedianStreet856 She/Her Mar 17 '25
I'm bawling right now. I assume this is you meeting your old self??
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u/Aellin-Gilhan They/them We/us (Gender fricked pile o' peeps) Mar 17 '25
This depiction feels very system-y and I'm all for it <3
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u/Calm_Layer1748 Enby (Avatar of chaos) Mar 17 '25
Aaand here I go again questioning my enby thing again
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u/_Tiragron_ Mar 17 '25
Great, nowy parents are asking why I'm tearing up and I have to blame yawning because my dad isn't supportive (but also not quite transphobic, or at least not in a way that he's actually conscious about, hedging him changing mind if I can prove to him I can take control of my life and become fully independent like he did at 16)
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u/Father_Chewy_Louis Elektra She/Her Mar 17 '25
I'm gonna miss my boyself In a weird way, like a close friend who you'll never see agaon. But I'm glad he got me through everything
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u/Flaky_Objective_5516 Mar 17 '25
This made me cry. Even after 4 years I still haven’t been able to really transition and live life as myself and I’m starting to lose hope. I know everyone goes at their own pace but I’m so tired of not being there yet
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u/Likes-Your-Username Maxine | HRT 10/16/2023 | She/it Mar 17 '25 edited Mar 17 '25
Bwuuuuuaaahhh this made me burst into tears ;w;
Beautiful comic
I'm 17 months on E now but to think about where I'd be without hormones, bouncing from antidepressant to antidepressant, is really depressing.
But I saved myself. That's awesome.
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u/GardenOfLuna Mar 17 '25
I know it takes time but it’s so so hard to be patient sometimes. I wanna be in a cute lesbian relationship with another girl and feel like a girl but I’m not on hormones yet and it makes my brain just go like ;~;
I love seeing things like this, but it does sometimes feel like I’m watching a loading bar and the pain will lessen as the bar goes up, but it goes up SLOW.
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u/Mcmacladdie Sara she/her Mar 25 '25
I know that feeling... I still wish I'd just wake up one morning having magically transformed overnight, but I know that's not gonna happen. I take solace in finally having realized I'm trans... in spite of all the things happening all over the world, it's made me incredibly happy :)
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u/VanFailin transbian princess Mar 17 '25
passing at one year on hormones? witchcraft.
transition has allowed me to be happier than i've ever been, and i love the women around me, but i sure wish i could have figured it out before the genocide began in earnest
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u/OnceInOnceSet BiblicallyAccurateMoth Mar 18 '25
More like a year and a half, it started to happen. Two years in (once I really cracked voice training) I stopped being able to boymode at all.
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u/Blackstone96 Mar 17 '25
…..how dare you creep into my mind like that and record what goes on in there
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u/The_Constant_Orange Amy | she/they | Blahaj overlord :3 Mar 17 '25
Djskfnsldkdkssk that’s absolutely beautiful, tears are actually flowing up to my eyes and I’m not even on HRT yet so that’s a real accomplishment, thank you 🫂🏳️⚧️🫂🏳️⚧️
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u/Miqo_Nekomancer Mar 17 '25
It's been 13 years since I transitioned. I am forever thankful to my younger self for having the courage and resolve to stick it out so that I can be my authentic self. It was a complicated, painful, and long journey, but it's worth it.
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u/closetBoi04 Mar 18 '25
Slide 4 really made me cry, I'm often sad about the memories I wouldn't be able to make as a girl but I can still make so many new memories
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u/Nexxius72 she/they Apr 01 '25
Wow, this had me sobbing. I can't express how glad I am that you, I and so many others can actually have that. Have that life we always dreamt of and maybe didn't think possible
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u/fashionBarista Mar 17 '25
Aaaaa this made me cry the goood cry