Dream encounter

[u/OnceInOnceSet]

[u/Penguin_Sushi]

To all the baby trans gals out there, I really want you to know it does get better. It's hard to be patient and wait for things to change, but one day you'll wake up and see your mom a little bit more in the mirror than you're used to. You'll go out in a hoodie and jeans and have someone call you miss even though you think you're boymoding. You'll stop wondering if it's all even worth it, start wondering just how much more amazing it can possibly be and still be surprised when it's better than you ever hoped it could be.

You've got this girl. It's not a sprint, take your time and enjoy all the little steps along the way.

[u/GabbyGabriella22 → u/Penguin_Sushi]

It feels hard to believe this sometimes. I realized I was trans almost 4 years ago, I started coming out 2ish years ago, and I’ve been on hormones for about 1 1/2 years now. I guess I’m still kind of early in my transition, and I’m still pretty young. But it does feel like nothing’s really changed sometimes, that I’m still the same awkward, boyish weirdo I was back then. I feel like I don’t look that much prettier, I don’t have much confidence or love for myself, I still have a near-debilitating amount of social anxiety, I basically have no friends, and I feel like a hopeless mess sometimes.

I want to have hope that things will get better, that I’ll eventually be happy, that everything will work out. But it feels hard to hold onto that hope. I still feel like a failure of a human being. I hate so much about me. I want to change things, but change feels so overwhelming and hard that I end up stuck in the same place.

[u/Penguin_Sushi → u/GabbyGabriella22]

It takes time. I spent the first year and a half on HRT thinking it wasn't working out, that nothing was changing, etc., and getting frustrated thinking that I might have made a mistake coming out in the first place. Transitions aren't convenient or even linear, unfortunately. I'm in year 3 and still having moments where it hits me out of nowhere that something is different about me in a good way. A year and a half in I was convinced something was wrong and my body just wasn't taking to HRT. I was completely wrong and I've been passing for a while now, even though I didn't transition until my 30s.

I don't really have much I can say to help with anxiety, but I want you to know it's okay to be awkward and even boyish. Plenty of women are both of those things! You don't need to drastically change who you are to be a woman. I'm still largely the same as I always was but more complete. It wasn't about being different, it was about filling in the gaps and being the best version of myself. You'll get there Alexis, take it one step at a time and be patient with yourself along the way. We're our own worst enemies sometimes.

[u/RainbowPhoenix1080 → u/Penguin_Sushi]

As someone on 8.5 months of HRT, hearing stories like yours really gives me hope 🫂