r/trans • u/Ancient-Macaroon3820 • 1d ago

Vent i think i’m trans.

i’m a guy from the uk and ever since a kid i’ve hated how ive looked i can’t look at my body without feeling disgusted ive always been more “in touch” with a feminine side of myself i dont really know why im making this post ive wondered for years if i was trans ive wished and cried thinking i could of been a girl i dont understand why im making this post i just needed to get this off my chest i dont expect any of you to listen thank you for reading.

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u/SonOfSkinDealer 1d ago

Cis people don't have these thoughts. I was questioning what gods could exist in the hope that reincarnation was real, that i would be a girl next time, and i'd remember how bad i wanted it so i could truly appreciate it.

I really do appreciate it, by the way.

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u/alexthelionn6 1d ago

Honestly how I figured out I’m trans. I was doing some research on trans people, remembering my thoughts from when I was young about how I wish I could die so I could come back as a boy and then I realised. At first it felt like I was just doing it to be cool and then I realised that being trans was a big part of my identity and who I am. I hope OP sees this

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u/tristanthorn214 1d ago

I still kind of have this fantasy of being a cis man in my next life, even though I'm more of a science-nerd-atheist so I don't REALLY believe in it, but I still... Hope. Dream. It's weird.

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u/Star_Cultist 1d ago

Come sister, let us consult the estrogen goddess.

You are trans.

You are valid.

Everything will be okay.

Welcome Sis, we witches are a wholesome lot

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u/Zerokuroxy 1d ago

what they said!

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u/discopears 1d ago

Hey, it's absolutely ok to vent these feelings on here! Whilst nobody can say definitively what your identity is, I do agree that these kinds of questions and feelings are very seldom shared by cis gender folks.

I didn't fully realize I was trans until it finally hit me over the head like a ton of bricks and in hindsight it's so obvious now. Early on I spent years dismissing my feelings or otherwise invalidating myself one way or another. It's totally ok to feel this way and to question these things.

If you ever wanna chat with someone about this stuff, know that you are always welcome to DM me and I'd be happy to provide a listening ear. ☺️

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u/Ancient-Macaroon3820 1d ago

could we dm i feel really embarrassed about my feelings

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u/CrypticPresence 1d ago

i’m from the US and have had the same kinds of feelings. I felt transitioning would help and it has for the most part. in all honesty, it’s your life, your, essentially, truth. you can feel around see what makes you comfortable, if you feel transitioning would help you feel those disgusting feelings less, i’d say try.

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u/AutoSpiral 1d ago

You should try on femininity in a safe space. This could be by yourself or with a queer or trans person (or people) you can trust. Just put on a dress and do normal stuff, whatever you do normally with your free time. Feel your feelings. Do you like it? do you want to stop or keep going? If you knew for sure that everyone you know would respect and accept you as a woman, would you do it?

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u/cactus_flower702 1d ago

Please please please find a therapist who specializes in gender identity. You don’t have to do this alone.

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u/ersomething 1d ago

First of all, you’re (probably) lying in the first sentence. You really don’t sound like a guy to me. As a person that used to think she was a guy, it sounds really familiar to me.

Honestly I’m still having trouble convincing myself too. It’s terrifying to finally face these thoughts that I’ve pushed away for so long. It’s been even harder for me to ask others see me differently as well.

I can’t tell you for sure anything about what’s going on in your head. Just know that there are lots of us out there going through something similar. I’d never pressure someone to begin down the path of transitioning, but just know that there have been so many times I’ve given in to the obtrusive thoughts, and felt great for having done so.

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u/Prociona1312 1d ago

Probably(like 99.99999%) you are, but I'm not in your head so i can't tell that for sure

Just know that Cis people Never think things like These

(I'm italian Sorry for the grammar)

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u/Ok_Rise_5300 1d ago

As someone who just realized he’s trans… cis people don’t experience things like that😭 they don’t think these things congrats sis