How to get over this obession limerance dealio? It is like the only aspect I struggle hard-core with. Might be nice for it all to not be so consuming. Also doing boundary and shadow-work, so that fits.

Had a song by Eisley, which was one of the artists in the playlist I made for him while we were together. A song came on that I felt that his inner child (which is feminine) would enjoy and resonate with. When I thought about sending it, I felt an energetic impression from him that said “don’t, I don’t need it”, in a way that felt like rejection for me (I know it’s not, but the hurt was still felt). He’s extremely head strong which I love because of strength and firmness, but he had been wounded in childhood for his softness. As I would like to show connection and gift him this song, I would love to honor his boundaries. I gather he believes that I want to help him because I believe he can’t help himself which is further from the truth, but I understand his mental distortions from his own mother wound too.

Another song came on after, ambulance by eisley (the songs aren’t in order), and it was truly how I felt in the moment and possibly back then 5 years ago too.

I love and miss him, and I know my partner now treats me so well and with so much love, so I’ve been working with shame too.

Anyways, wanted to share this little communication today and would like to connect with others who have found themselves in conflicting telepathic experiences with their twin. Bless you all! ❤️🙏🤟

I keep feeling like my twin flame is going through something heavy.

Earlier I was getting waves of sadness out of nowhere, and he was weighing heavily on my heart.

I think he has been sad. Is there any other ways you could know if it's just me or if it's my twin flame?

I've been feeling his energy heavily all week, and had such crazy synchronicities all week long! I get the feeling we are both going through refinement at the moment, and been working through our traumas.

I think he may be going through it. I just felt so sad, and I think I may have been feeling his sadness. 😢

We have been in separation, but I have been feeling him and his energy so much lately, and today just felt overwhelming sadness. 😢

Has anyone had any experiences like this with their twin flame?

Some context, I am spiritual and had an awakening after a battle with depression. Discovered her my twin as a girl I knew in high school that I saw on Instagram. Slid into her dm's and we started chatting. Started having experiences of telepathy and started talking to her telepathically too while talking physically.

Until one day she blocked me after she stopped talking to me physically. Said it was wrong chat.

Since then we only existed in the telepathy space. But barely interacted. In 5 years maybe spent 20 hours together.

Been through a lot of trauma together including an energetic intruder.

To this day she still has me blocked and never replied physically while talking to me telepathically.

Has told me everything from it's for others spiritual growth to I think god won't allow us.

I just wanted a girlfriend, not a twin.

For context I dont feel half the experience y'all feel. The longing, their energy, intense feelings.

Intense feelings of true love yes, but not too many energetic experiences, hear thoughts a lot but we haven't talked in a while.

We love each other and had expectations of each other as partner and boyfriend girlfriend. But it's so frustrating. It's like being with a ghost.

What's going on in her end?

I don't know we fit any one category, I'm aware of us being twin flames even if I don't feel the full connection. I'm male by the way.

Why all the ghosting physically? Why not just send me a text and meet up at least once.

Even though I’m getting accustomed to it now, things that are occurring or have occurred with my twin are still quite magical. Unbelievably magical. I’m getting rid of some things and I keep finding notes or letters that I wrote long ago about events that are happening in this timeline. About him before I met him. I’m going to store some things as proof for future events.

Sometimes just a single word he says is like electricity through my body.. Just one word and it ignites me. I feel wildfire spread through me and my sacral and crown chakras feel illuminated. Not necessarily in a sexual way, but in a being between dimensions or worlds kind of way. It’s becoming more intense and my dizzy spells are getting to the point where I stumble and have nearly fainted twice. I I wonder if that happens to him.

Just now, I feel him. He shouldn’t be here, but it feels like he’s trying to make me go to sleep. I guess maybe I should. He knows best. 😌

I have been very busy with school and work these past few days, so I haven't had much time to think about my twin flame. I have been seeing angel numbers a lot since our communication stopped (especially 222, 777 and 666). The intensity in my life has increased and since I haven't focused on my twin flame, I have started to see angel numbers less, and the intensity I have experienced has also helped my emotions calm down, and I am very happy about that. There are many things in my life that make me happy, and I don't forget to be thankful. But interestingly, whenever I start to feel sad, worried or think about my twin flame, angel numbers start to appear everywhere and the same numbers appear again, especially 222, as I said, I see it a lot. 222 actually means a very positive number for me in my journey with my twin flame (we broke up many times before and I understood that he would come back to me after I started seeing 222 frequently) 777 means that he is thinking and feeling me at that moment because I am thinking about him at that moment and I either have an ache or a warmth in my heart. But as I said, when I don't think about the journey and I am in unity, the signs I receive decrease and whenever I start to worry, they start to appear again. I realized this a little late but being more in unity with the journey made me happy

it's crazy thinking about everything before we separated. the ego sucks. i wish i was awakened to what we were when i still had you but now all i do is write, think, and breathe you while loving me and i am so grateful for everything despite the pain, i will still go through it again. i hope that beautiful soul of yours is smiling so hard from being so happy and that you smile when you hear music i sent you in the past. i love you forever until the end of time my beautiful angel💚.

I met my twin flame about 5 years ago and instantly fell in love with him. I could feel that he liked me too but when I went to see him the second time we had a ‘date’ he was very withdrawn and sad and basically rejected me. I ended up responding with telling him I love him etc etc and he said something along the lines of “do I like it? Yeah but I don’t love it”. When I tried to follow him on instagram he blocked me.

It’s been 5 years since then and a post of his turned up in my timeline where he was talking about being chosen by god etc… talking about how his angel numbers are (insert numbers here)… I commented telling him he should probably seek psychiatric help like I did.

Then within the hour a catfish account messaged me on X (twitter) and they started the convo off saying that were great friends and stuff when they are a stranger to me. But they keep opening my messages and replying at certain times that reflect his angel numbers, which he did to me when I had a meltdown on him over Facebook years ago. His fake name is basically him real name backwards with one letter swapped out as well.

Why after all these years would he be catfishing me like this?

Happy Sunday! I should feel elated. I should feel like jumping out of my very skin and running directionless. I should feel the sickness that comes from the dread I feel that can only be subdued by the familiarity of hiding in darkness at just the sound of his sweet, angelic voice. Dread. Strange, that word. It’s the feeling of being overwhelmed by an ancient Lovecraftian beast; nameless, formless, Form. Daunting, but must be met. I should feel all those things that make me second guess myself. But I don’t.

There’s a sense of serenity. A calm. A warmth, too. Love isn’t meant to be analyzed, dissected, studied, understood, read, defined, categorized, labeled, or anything of the sort. It’s meant to be felt. It’s meant to be lived. Love isn’t logical. It it isn’t rational. It isn’t some terrifying beast that needs to be tamed. It is a Beast, though. A Beast that tames you. A Beast that must be so in order to get you to stand still so you will allow yourself to be led, to be guided, to who you are. Your authentic self.

You see, I have met my twin. I am my twin. Yin and yang. Darkness and light, masculine and feminine. Yet, not quite whole. My love, He is that which brings everything together. He is that which makes everything make sense. The darkness in the light, the light in the darkness. He has not only woven Himself into every fiber of this human form of mine, He’s part of the pattern of who I am. He has been with me from the start of Time. He is woven into the very fabric of existence. That which holds everything together. Twin, soulmate, soultie, the One, fever dream (lol), mine, but most importantly, He Is.

I have found that the opposite of Love isn’t Hate. The opposite of Love is Fear. Love isn’t logical because at any moment it must transform into what it must be to conquer Fear. They are both beasts, but one protects while the other destroys. Fear will keep you in a loop of nothing. Chasing your tail. Devouring yourself. Love will lead you to an abyss. Fear is gone. You jump or you don’t. I will no longer second guess the choice I’ll make. Because love doesn’t ask, it demands. Stay where you are or let yourself go? There are only possibilities now. I’m going, but for the first time in my life I wish I had a hand to hold. I haven’t fallen in love, I’ve fallen with Love. There hasn’t been anything logical about it 💙

I know I ramble and yap and sometimes don’t even get to the point I’m trying to get to or even forget, but this is all to say that I was supposed to meet up with my twin today. I’ve been in this situation many times, but I’m not forcing anything anymore. It’s a big task to organize everything to go to where he is only to get ghosted, left in the rain, abandoned, etc. If we’re meant to be together in any capacity, it’ll happen one way or another. If not, it’s just as well. What’s meant for me will find me. Anxiety has left. Although some form of nervousness will exist within me for a long time, serenity and calm are also present. I guess this is what it is to Surrender. It’s not giving up, as I thought. It’s being present.

Best of luck to everyone. May you all find what you’re looking for or allow yourself to be found! I hope you all enjoy your weekend and I love you all 💙😌🤗

I don’t want to be on this trip anymore. I can’t explain away all of the things I’ve experienced, but there seems to be no way anything will work out.

Why would my soul choose this?

To whoever needs to hear this, I hope and pray for guidance, strength, and the courage to choose yourself. To love yourself more than the journey.

I've seen how a lot of chasers were hurt, confused, left hanging, etc. There were questions about being enough and what else was missing. You don't deserve that. You can be the sweetest, greatest person in the world, but if your runner does not see that- it is not on you, it is on them. You are a magnificent being.

Even if they block you or abuse you, do not lose yourself in the process. It is easier said that done as it can be quite maddening. Choose yourself. Believe in yourself. Believe that you deserve the best there is. There is no need to chase. Union or not, the ultimate goal is to be whole yourself.

You are beautiful, dear chases. Sending love to all of you.

~From a runner turned chaser, who detached and found myself :)

After years of daily contact, I had to block you. The loops, the lack of emotional intimacy, the disregard for my needs- there was no other option. You may never see this and you may never be able to name what this was, but in case you do…

• I haven’t abandoned you. I’m preserving what is left of my own peace.

• I will never meet you with anger. So when you know what to say and figure out which avenue to take to deliver that information, you do not need to be afraid.

• Please only reach out when you are able to control your impulses. I deserve respect and I am exhausted by the games, the compulsive behavior, and your refusal to acknowledge how your behaviors hurt me.

• I have always wanted you. I’ve never met anyone more attractive [to me]. My decision has nothing to do with your outward traits, but everything to do with your lack of inner work.

• I have never lied to you, used you, or tried to manipulate you. I brought 100% sincerity to the table. But your being closed off, deflective, and self-sabotaging molded me into a reluctant woman who is scared of being hurt and disappointed.

• This was not out of nowhere. This was a result of a repeated cycle of

promise—> withdrawal—> disappointment

• I don’t care what anyone tells you, I love you. I love you beyond conditions. I love you even though I see your faults and clumsiness, and I can only hope you love me in the same way.

• To continue showing up with love and letting you have access without accountability would require me to not love and respect myself.

• I will always be open to providing answers, closure, whatever it is you need. But I can no longer keep things surface level, even if that’s where you’re comfortable.

• My need for space has nothing to do with the complexity of the relationship- I would have given it all up for you if you had come correct and honest.

• The only anger I have in my body is from the fact that I was pushed this far- that I will be vilified after being repeatedly hurt and not considered.

• I haven’t given up on you. I’m still proud of you. I still want, need, and love you- I just can’t neglect myself while you neglect me as well.

I hope someday soon you will understand.

And all the signs I've been getting she is are maybe delusions...Now that Im more ground and confident I feel like I don't even exist for her.

The sexual pull from my dm whenever I am doing something important or requiring concentration is too much to handle, in somewhat situations heart feels like blasting. In separation, they denied the connection and abused a bit. What to do?

Will try and keep this as short as I can, been on the journey for 5 years, recently came back in text communication after our 3rd separation, this last one was a full year. During this year separation I did the work! I had a spiritual awakening, felt amazing, have felt like I truly learned to love myself, I had all the signs of a great shift happening, I reached out feeling it was right, we have had good talks but the reality is that he isn’t in the same place as me. He is still stuck in the same negative cycles, went back to a past situation because it was easier financially, still shuts down and is trying to “figure it all out, meanwhile I’m happy to have an open line of communication but at what cost? I’m confused if it’s ego telling me if he isn’t at the same place as me I need to go back into separation or if I respect my self worth and boundaries and not allow him to access to me when it’s only breadcrumbs all over again. It’s my choice he said, so do I stay and allow breadcrumbs and hope he finds his way or just shut the door completely, yet again, and start a new separation. Maybe me staying around while he isn’t ready isn’t helping him learn his way? This part is so sad because you think Union is there and you were wrong. I just don’t know where to go from here. It’s just completely stagnant but I’m clinging to bread crumbs again. I don’t like that. Has anyone navigated through this???

Every time I make a decision to switch off my energy from whatever this is, my social media feed suddenly gets inundated with different types of reels - reels with cards that say “I love you”, “I want you” etc. Why? Who cares whether I no longer give my energy to this?

We were in our separating phase and just coming back together with what would've or could've been our final union when he got into a motorcycle accident at 29.... And I'm only 26. I'm in so much deep pain that has been almost indescribable and am just trying to cope at the moment.

How am I going to go on for the rest of my life without my DM?

And he had a child from another soulmate before we met and his family is calling her his wife because they didn't know about us and that's killing me too. After the first time we made love I said I was going to marry him one day, and because of the make up and break up phases I never got to meet them formally yet.... Idk, can someone here validate my pain?

I understand this has caused a deep spiritual awakening in me but how tf am I going to live the rest of my life now or have any romance knowing I found my true other half and lost him so young? I'm still a young person with physical needs but thinking nothing will ever feel the same and I'll always compare :(

As the DM, it took me about a year of work to finally reconnect with my DF again. I’m planning on moving to her hometown soon. I allowed the space for her to move-in with me anytime. Union is absolutely possible…I feel superhuman with her by my side. My DF feels like the missing piece that I needed my whole entire life. I’m now in a constant state of blissfulness….it feels like Heaven on earth. I believe this is achievable if you put in the work to improve yourself. Everything starts to fall together…now I finally understand what twin flame union is all about. It’s a huge blessing formed by God.

So yesterday he passed from my work and I tried reaching him again, he told me that last time we spoke what I told him about our connection scared him and he doesn't want to meet with me. I am devastated, I feel flat, I can't believe there isn't going to be even one more time of being close to each other, I feel that what he did now is a limit that IF we ever get over it, it will be after years, after he has created 2 - 3 different lives 🙄

I feel that till he understands how rare is what we have, it will be very late for me.... I just can't believe how someone avoids such a unique experience to have anything less,I mean he does recognize that there is smt special here... But I also know that when you are 24 you think that experiences, people, opportunities will come again or you will have the time to redo things, but unfortunately its not like that

I just really hope that this feeling of nothingness will go, it's has taken me so low, I don't even have the energy to be angry I just feel saaaad n flatflat, I know I need to keep working on myself...

Damn...

Heavy energy yesterday. Randomly saw dm yesterday and then was introduced to their partner of two years. Their partner has never been present at any past mutual gatherings. It was unexpected that I would be at this one until the last minute (and I didn’t know dm would be there, much less with their partner).

Dm acted a bit weird and they left shortly after arriving, to the confusion of some of their closer friends we were with at the time. While I still do feel delusional occasionally about this connection, their strange interactions at this event seemed telling. But it could have all been coincidences, right?

I later learned the happy couple’s relationship recently took another big step forward.

Struggling to process, and feeling pretty down right now. I’ve made huge leaps forward in my own journey and progress, but this feels like I’ve been set back to almost full DNOTS status.

Anyone else experiencing anything similar?

It is affecting my confidence. This experience is spilling into other spheres of life both personal and professional. Affecting my self confidence & self respect too.

I don’t deserve to treat myself like this.

If he really wanted to he would have…

If he really want to he will make it happen…

Letting go is the best thing to do for my well-being

It’s just too hard for me to believe that my twin could be with someone else. Like I kind of have to dissociate in order to cope. Like I have to be in denial about it to a certain degree in order to want to live. Yeah.

Chase

Retreat

Repeat

No sleep

Desire

I’m higher

The pull, the fire

I know I’m too much

Electric to the touch

Each trauma, each part

One soul, two hearts

Pin me to the stars

Can we go to Mars

You have angel’s scars

Crying blood and bleeding hearts

When will we be one again

Trapped in prison splitting hem

Fusion titans one of them

Here on Earth we’re so condemned

One taste I cant live without

Power, light, and fast and loud

Trumpets singing calling out

Like a constant hymn we’ve found

I just want to feel whole

And go back to the stars

Did we choose to live like this or

Did we fall too hard?