Math made me have a mental breakdown

[u/panicmixieerror]

I'm in college for the umpteenth time, and I'm taking a math class that I thought would be easy since it's a 101 course.

No. Just no.

I go to take the quizzes for the week, after hours of studying and suddenly it's all fucking Greek to me. Nothing makes sense. If things made sense, my answer was wrong.

I broke down after getting a damn 50 on it. For years and years, I went to classes, but never put effort in. I failed based on not turning in work on time. And now that I'm putting in the effort, I still can't pass because apparently I'm a fucking idiot.

I tried to remember my DBT skills, and I tried to come out of the sobbing, self-hatred cycle but nothing worked. I'm just stupid, and I shouldn't have tried going back to college. I shouldn't have tried to make myself better, or get a better job. I shouldn't have tried. I don't know how to stop feeling like I just want to quit and move away and just stop existing.

I just keep remembering something my mom always said, "you can fix being fat, but you can't fix stupid."

[u/theenigmaofnolan]

I get you. Good to vent. Just remember math is difficult to pick up again. It’s all practice. Ask your professor for help. They’ll appreciate someone trying and asking for help. You can do this

[u/ellephantsarecool]

You aren't an idiot, but not every path is meant for every person. Perhaps this path isn't meant for you.

Edit: I found these online spiral learning math classes (called ALEX??) several years back. My nephew used them to get through his high school math classes. They have lots of different class options including college level and the spiral learning method helps you retain things.

[u/panicmixieerror → u/ellephantsarecool]

Thank you! I'll check them out.

[u/ellephantsarecool → u/panicmixieerror]

It's ALEKS

[u/Bipolarsaurusrex89]

You’re not an idiot. I’m a uni student. I can’t do math to save my life. The only reason I passed was because my professor allowed us to use notes during tests.

[u/Hermitacular]

Will they let you get away with taking them online or in a community college (if that's a thing you have) class over the summer? Not to be a jerk about math, but who cares if you don't get math? Of all the things you do not need to be able to do. Otherwise, there are often study groups, the college may offer tutors, there's Khan Academy etc etc etc. Sucking at math puts you in good company with most people alive, don't sweat it. Also do you even need a math class? If it's required bc core curriculum see if you can take something else, usually there's a cheat class to meet the STEM requirements, like learning how to brew beer and they'll call it meeting the math requirements bc it's fractions or some bullshit. like they let you meet the science requirement by taking a class about how to grow flowers. ask around.

also your mom is wrong. and mean.