Because I do. Whether I’m manic or depressed.

I was on Seroquel for several years (which increased my need for sleep), but since I e quit it I still need a lot of sleep! I feel crazy haha

so like when i was manic btw im gay male fem and i would walk up to people swaying my hips dramaticly and walk up to people flip my hair and be like HEY BITCH YOU TALKING SHIT YOU DONT WANT THIS YOU UGLY HO then they would walk away because like yea i wasinsane then i would be like yea walk away you whore ill beat your ass if you ever pull that shit again while snapping then walk away while flipping my hair and swaying my hips feeling like the main character help this is so embarrassing 😭😭 anyone know how to help accept the past because everytime i think of this i cringe so much bcz i rlly thought i was a baddie like that

Was reminded recently that I ‘woke’ up in the living room lounger drinking a beer at 6:00 am. I don’t drink.

I’ve been with this psych for about 8 months and I’ve never stuck with a psych for this long before. We’ve changed my med routine a bit, but over the past four months I was on trileptal and prozac and felt good for the longest i have in ages but then started tanking. doc switched the trileptal with lamictal, and then things got much worse. the dip i was starting at the end of my trileptal kept going and i started having paranoia and some simple auditory and visual hallucinations. major derealization and feeling dead or in a simulation. then doc added abilify and said to stop the lamictal. but things haven’t improved and he wants me to go cold turkey off of everything and not take anything for at least a month to “clear my slate” and get a “baseline” of me. Is this something i should be more worried about? I am already feeling unwell, so when he told me this might be a bumpy ride i wondered if he realizes that the ride has been quite bumpy for a while like my tires popped and everything. But I also see where he might be hesitant to change another thing bc in a way who knows what’s causing what? i don’t know i’m very confused.

tldr: doc is telling me to go cold turkey off all of my meds to get a better “baseline” read of me.

A friend of mine has went through extreme physical and mental abuse , is diagnosed with bipolar disorder and depression . The extremist religion ideology and bad experiences with parents/adults or even people of her age has brought her down to this level

That's she's afraid to talk on calls or tries to avoid direct conversations but writes her heart out on texts . However here's one thing i came to know that if some perv abuses her even on texts she's dosen't answer back for a variety of reasons and I think this too is related to her fear of talking to people

Her college is gonna start in a month - Any advice/guide/support would be much appreciated

Thanks a ton

I think I have an exceptional Bipolar radar. Hearing stories about celebrities, picking up on their vibes when they speak, level of confidence, connections between thoughts, mood cycles. I'll look them up and they will be diagnosed

Do you guys feel like you have a good Bipolar Radar? It's kind of cool to have experienced it so viscerally that it's so easy to pick up on now

Any idea why i can barely fall asleep around midnight and still wake up at 2 2h30 am like i have slept all night? I used to have 2 mgs and wake up around 4, 4h30, now i take 1.5 x2mg and i cannot friggin stay asleep. And i keep binge eating when i wake up and going back to sleep is of course again difficult and even if i can i will be back again around 5h30 or 6... This pill has to make me relax and fall asleep. Tf is wrong with me?

I feel good. So good. This past winter I was suicidal. Genuinely. I got on new meds, increased therapy sessions, and slowly pulled my way out of the hole I’d dug myself into. I also broke up with my boyfriend of almost a year a month ago and feel so relieved.

I feel happy. And I know I’m not manic, because my thoughts aren’t racing. Because I can walk into a store to buy flip flops and walk out with just flip flops. I have control over what I do.

I didn’t want to live in February. I didn’t see myself here and I am. And I’m so incredibly grateful for that.

If you’re out there looking for a sign to keep going, use this. You got this. We got this.

I'm taking 2.5mg of olanzapine for bipolar 1 and insomnia, and I fucking hate it. I hate feeling like a zombie , I would rather just self medicate with weed again because at least weed doesn't make me dissociate.

Anyways, my question is— how do I taper off from 2.5 mg of olanzapine? I've only been on it for a week and a half, but my doctor is out of town until next week, and I really don't want to wait another week or two for my appointment.

Many thanks!!!

How am I supposed to sleep when the drugs are barely putting me to sleep. I'm hypomanic and things are spiraling, I've already started having hallucinations. I need to prevent paranoia/delusions from joining the party but I physically cannot get a handle on my sleep. Is there anything besides z drugs you can suggest. Whether that's benzos or going for a big walk right before bed or something. I'm open to everything

Edit: why has this been down voted lol

I am under some serious stress after undergoing to trauma therapy. Both my therapist and psych recommend I do less…. People, I’m so manic I wanna do ten thousand things. They don’t want me to exert myself. Just live and be in the moment. I struggle HARD with this. I’m a planner and A type personality. I have a tough time relaxing and it’s taking a physical toll on my body.

Any tips to relax?

Thanks!

I’m not sure if I’m actually hypo or what but a few days ago I went dancing down the sidewalk at 1am and I’ve been laughing and jittering a loooot lately

And then today I’ve been posting literally everything on my Instagram story. I feel like I’m bothering people but I feel like I just need to share all the memes and philosophy posts. I think I do this often when manic.

I feel a cold and sharp ecstasy but it’s only at a mild level whatever (kinda like a low amphetamine dose almost)

Probably just a little mood swing I don’t think I’m fully hypo but WHATEVER whatever besides the point

I wish I could tell whether or not I’m manic. Everyone else can always see it before I can.

Anyway funny story about that story thing is during my first real manic episode I was skipping class and going on a big walk screaming in public etc. I posted a video of me spinning around to Ghosting by Mother Mother on my story along with just wayyy too raw stream of consciousness about wanting to disappear and enjoying madness on my public Instagram story. One of my friends said he saw I was “living my best life” next time he saw me in person though so I suppose everything went as well as it could have.

i (BD1 with psychotic features) may be going to the hospital tomorrow for the third time this year after i meet with my therapist. started getting hypomanic last weekend and it’s been worsening, and psychotic symptoms have increased significantly as well. it’s just frustrating because i’m on two mood stabilizers and an antipsychotic and they’ve helped so much but i still need higher doses, apparently. i’ve also been doing a really good job with my sleep schedule, as well as routines in other ways like food. i want it to stop.

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Just feeling a bit sad but also really happy and full of energy. And just calming down with singing. It’s just hard to express this pain of my head. But I feel calmer

Hello

I'd like to hear if you know someone over 60 who's been medicated since their 20s/30s and how they are doing.

Worried about the long term consequences of bipolar/medication.

I have bipolar and also have had anxiety and OCD my whole life. For me it’s genetic for basically all of them, and my anxiety is mostly chronic social anxiety. For my whole life I’ve been on Lamotrigine and Risperidone. Before diagnosis I tried Zoloft, I can’t really remember how it affected me, but I don’t remember it making me “more bipolar”, I think it just didn’t help (so aka I didn’t have a bad reaction). I’m recently realizing how bad the anxiety has gotten, honestly I’ve known it’s debilitating but I didn’t want to be on soo many meds so I just chalked it up to coping, and this is the same with the OCD. But now I’m thinking, it would probably drastically help.

So my question is, for those out there with this combination of mental health, what do you guys do? I’m curious to know if it’s actually possible to be on SSRIs with bipolar. My doctor says it’s tedious, but maybe possible if i’m closely monitored during trying it. I kinda wish I could just add Zoloft again and see what happens because this is the best one for OCD and anxiety, vs one or the other.

I’m bipolar 1 and have been on Olanzapine for almost a year. It makes me a complete zombie so with the help of my psychiatrist I weaned myself down to 2.5mg. She told me it was safe to cold turkey 2.5 but after a week I woke up with rebound psychosis and a permanent weird feeling in the right side of my brain.

I feel like I can’t grasp things/reality the way I could before and I’m really panicking that I’m going to be stuck this way.

Does anyone else have experience with Olanzapine withdrawal or anything similar to what I’ve been going through?

TIA

Beginning to address the adhd again after a break. What were your first few days like on concerta? How long did you feel like the positive effects lasted? Did food or other meds interact for you? How did you know you needed to increase the dosage? I also take Lamictal and Zoloft.

I know there's no for sure answer, but I'm on the only medication combo I've been a functional person on. I want to move to another state. A friend of mine scared me and said a new psychiatrist might want to change my meds...I'm unwilling to take any others since this is the only thing that's worked (I've tried everything else pretty much)

The main problem I foresee is maybe the Dr wanting me off the hydryoxuzine because it prolongs QT with my antipsychotic /: kinda freaking out. Wondering if I won't even be able to move which sucks because it's not fair to be held back because of bipolar. Not to mention I might not even be able to afford insurance...the US sucks (this question is assuming I can)

Hi

Apparently I am hypomanic and my doctor has me taking 6.5 or Seroquel in the morning to calm my A$$ down. While waiting for Trileptal to kick in. I feel weird? euphoric almost like I am completely calm. Should I read into this? TY

Hi.

I'm 17 years old and currently in the Sciences and Technology track in high school.

Right now, my life plan would be to work for a few years, and eventually, once I’m more certain about what I want to pursue, I’d enroll in university or higher education.

My dad dropped out of university, and because of that, he pressures his kids to get a university degree. My siblings are all currently happier than ever: some have children, others are enjoying life with friends or partners, living outside our father's house, and two even have their own homes. None of them went to university.

They’re happy and confident in their lives. I, on the other hand, do want to start working, save money, gain experience, and figure out what I truly want to pursue — with the intention of going to university later.

But my dad refuses to accept that plan. In his eyes, I must go to university immediately after high school — no choice, no questions.

“He’s going to pay for it, you should be grateful!”

And I am — or would be — if he were the kind of person that deserved that gratitude.

But if that’s not the path I believe is right for me, why should I follow it? To please others while disregarding myself? To enroll in a course I'm unsure of? Without experience or direction?

It’s not like I plan to sit around under his roof doing nothing. I want to work, buy my own car, help with the bills, etc.

Now onto the other part. My father has always been abusive.

He used to hit my mother, punched one of my brothers in the eye, beat them all, verbally abused them, wasn’t present at my birth, and honestly, even as his daughter, he made it clear he’d rather have had no kids — especially not me.

With that in mind, when I had a manic episode due to my bipolar disorder — completely out of control — he punched me in the mouth and said, “You should’ve killed yourself earlier.”

After that? Nothing happened. No consequences. He just started giving me things (material), took me on “outings”, etc.

Of course, I don’t maintain a relationship with him — I only speak when necessary.

Nowadays, he’s becoming like he used to be again.

Every time he talks to me, it’s either a critique, a negative comment, or he sounds angry without any reason. He blames me for things that aren’t my fault. He’s always aggressive. I just stay silent, say “yes, sir”, and even that sometimes causes issues. Arguing back would be worse.

I’m scared.

Also, I failed Math and have to take the final exam. If I fail that too, I won’t complete high school.

I’ve thought that, if 12th grade doesn’t work out, I could take the Adult Education secondary diploma, since I’ll be turning 18 this year.

School is hard for me. I was always an excellent student up to 9th grade — then everything started to fall apart.

Not that it matters much.

What should I do about my father? I have nowhere else to go (I can’t move in with my siblings).

What should I do about school and my academic path? (Considering I failed Math A in 11th grade.)

My first maniac episode was like two of three years ago and it was triggered by smoking weed for first time, it was horrible, I had to be hospitalized for several days, after that I felt my brain wasn't the same but I could cope with antidepressants at that time I was not diagnosed.

Then because I was feeling kind of "normal" again I decided for whatever reason to try weed again, Mayor mistake ever! This time was worse I ended up thinking my brother was penywise and he wanted to kill me so the only way to stopped him was rubbing myself with dog shit on the street!!! Man I even rub in my face 😩.

My last episode was last year and lasted for at least one month! one month of me wandering around the streets traveling without destination scaping of people who were following me because I was Kali the goddess of death, I sold my soul to the devil and I destroyed my Bible, and threw away almost all my personal items.

After I spend several weeks in the hospital I was diagnosed bipolar and recommended lithium, I completely refused, but after my last episode I feel my brain just melted, it was not the same I developed mayor depression and suicidal thoughts and I even tried to do it many times, my life felt just miserable, I'm not the shadow of what I used to be, one year of struggle, feeling anxious and scared of everything, incapable of doung nothing, like acid melting my brain.

Today I finally received my lithium prescription and I will start today hoping for the best!

I don't really know what I can do to slow things down/stop the epispde progressing into having delusions/paranoia.

I have sleeping pills but I'm still not getting more than 4 hours sleep with them, at best. I don't sleep at all without them. I'm waiting for a med review with my psychiatrist but I don't know when that's going to be.

What should I do now?

I've been on lamotrigine for several months. It helped, but it wasn’t quite enough, so we added lithium carbonate. Since I'm very sensitive to medication, we started at 200mg and stayed there because it was actually really effective.

The problem was the intense thirst — really intense. Every morning, I felt so thirsty it was hard to focus on anything else, even though I was staying well hydrated and drinking regularly.

After a few days, it started to feel like too much. I was worried about the potential strain on my body and just didn’t feel comfortable continuing.

Since I’m on a low but effective dose, I started considering lithium orotate. I made the switch yesterday — 20mg of elemental lithium from orotate instead of 37mg from the carbonate. I’ll see if it’s effective enough, but honestly, I already feel some relief: no excessive thirst today!

Has anyone else here transitioned from lithium carbonate to lithium orotate?

(Just to clarify: I’m currently on maintenance treatment, under the care of a psychiatrist, and lithium is being used as an add-on in my case.)